Nerdy Is Idol?! || Jungkook [COMPLETED]

Notes!

I having some mental breakdown these day.

I know it sounds weird but I have mental breakdown because I fat.

Not really fat.
My weight is above 60 which is 65 but my height is just 158 cm.

My parents , brother and even my sister always call me fat.

I really concerned of it.

Thus , I make a risk by eating 1 meal in one day.

But lately , my brother keep calling me fat , looking like a pig.

Even tho my weight has lost a bit.

So I risk more by just ate one meal in 3 or 4 day.

To forget about my hungriness , I make myself busy by doing stuff...

But my stomach didn't stop growling asking for food.

As a strict diet I'm having.

I just drank water to fill my hungry stomach.

My weight does lost but I always got distracted and looking pale.

My mom advise me to stop my strict diet. Concerned if I would pass out ine day.

But I say to her this ,

"Mom. You know Jimin that I always brag to you? Do you still remember the picture from his debut that I show you?"

My mom answer.

"Yes. Why did you ask?"

So I tell her ,

"He practice dance , song , and so much more. Having strict schedule. He is a perfectionist. Do you know how he lost his fat? By diet but more harsh than I do. So why would I pass out when he did more?"

I admire Jimin when he can continue his schedule even tho he sometimes pass out while practicing.

He strict diet went too far. When my brother keep teasing me. I just can't forget how Jimin diet and decide to follow his way.

Yes. It's not the healthy way.

But I also exercising. I learn dancing. Practicing. But not much as Jimin. I jog , ran and more.

Truly to say.

When my family say I fat.

I just smile but when I went to my room. I just cry.

I always try to lost my fat.

Till one day.

I decide to eat one meal a day.

But then , I decide to eat one meal in 2 or 3 day. And just drank water.

Whenever I got hungry. I drank water again and again.

My friend concerned about it a lot.

Yet. I'm not satisfied with my body.
I'm just wanna tell this here. Cuz I have nobody to told to.

I will continue my strict diet till I satisfied. I'm weight 65 and my ideal weight is 45 to 53 kg.

I hope you guys support me.

That's all.
Thank you for hearing me up.

I love you guys!