I️ thought I️ would be over it by now. I️ would be sad for a little while then quickly get over him. It's been a two months and here I️ am crying over D. Not only is he gone but so is my plan for my future. I️ was in my last semester and would soon be finished with my schooling.
I️ don't get why he had to have his way. What we were doing was just fine. No one knew so it was perfect. This hole in my heart won't ever be filled. So here I am. Sitting here alone with no one to hold me or vent to. Especially because no one knew we were dating. There I️ said it D is-well- was my boyfriend. We were in a long term relationship. Saying this just made me feel worse. He really broke up with me.
There was a knock at the door. I️ didn't want to see anyone except D. In hope it was I️ got up and went to answer it to then be slightly disappointed. Maybe my best friends is what I️ need.
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"So you disappear and think it's okay." Sanaa said as they walked in.
"Yeah like what kinda best friend are you? This what we do now?" Regina said sitting down.
"Why are you guys here?" I️ scratched my hair and huffed while mumbling under my breath.
"Um no. Try again no need for attitude. You decided to go MIA and thought no one would come looking for you. Ya thought wrong." Sanaa said using her finger.
"Now..." Gina sighed. " are you going to tell us what could possibly be wrong with you." I huffed again. If I admitted to myself it's only right that I admit to everyone else. It's what D wanted in the first place.
"D broke up with me. And-"Regina gasped.
"You had a man and didn't tell us!" Sanaa chuckled at her. Regina has always been the dramatic one. The three of us met in foster care. I met Sanaa first. Her mother and father owned the orphanage. We met when we were 6 and 7. That was also the age I last saw my parents. Regina came along a few years later she was 8 I was 9, and Sanaa was 10. We didn't get along. Her father is a King Pin and her parents were locked up before. The charges weren't large so her mother served four and her dad had six. They now work in a private business. She didn't want to be close to anyone and vise versa. Everyone knew she knew how to properly work a gun at the age of seven. But she got over that wall and we've been friends ever since.
"So who is this D?" Sanaa asked sitting up. I mumbled back 'Dwayne'
"Your roommate!?!" She sat up.
"Stand down Regina." Sanaa spoke. She rolled her eyes. "Anyway besides you not telling us. Why'd he break up with you?"
"I didn't want to claim him as 'mine' and he got tired of waiting."
"Well why didn't you do it?"
" I was afraid he was going to leave me. That I would get my hopes up, fall in love and he would break me. As you can see I was right he did it anyway."
"Have we left you?" Regina asked.
"But-"
"Have. We. Left."
"No." I folded my arms slouching back.
"What about your mom? Your sisters and brother? No because we care about you. And so does Dwayne. You have to let him be the man he wants to. He can't love you if you won't let him. If you keep letting all the good people walk out your life you can't be happy." A tear slipped out of my eye.
"I-I love him."
"Good. You see want you want. Now you have to show him."
"Okay I know what I have to do." Sanaa smiled.
"Great. Now back to what we came here for you need to get dressed." Sanaa said as they smirked. I rolled my eyes.
"Aren't y'all getting too old for this?"
"Yeah. Yeah whatever." Regina said grabbing my hand and rushing to the room while Sanaa followed. I looked through my closet at the many options.
"Alright what about this?"
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"Are you joking? No I know you are. Come on we gotta go." Regina said whining through the last part. Sanaa sat behind her snickering.
"Yeah whatever." I went back to change into what I knew would be an eye catcher. Perfect for the occasion so I would probably be in and out.
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"You could've put that on in the first place let's go. I'm really trying to find someone to go out with." Regina said shifting her lace shorts that showed in between her dress.(pic attached)
We arrived at the club at 11 p.m. As expected it was crowded and hot. We went to order our drinks.
"Two Tropical Sunrises and a Watermelon Cosmo." Sanaa told the woman who came up to us. I figured as we waited I should get caught up.
"So who's the target today?" Regina looked over.
" His name is Jedidiah. He's 29, really skinny and pretty short only 5'5. He's into older women and that's what got him into this. Doing a lot of dirty deeds for this woman. He's not really book smart and he loves to drink. So keep him from getting tipsy and stay focused." I nodded in understanding. When our drinks came back I grabbed mine. Before walking over to the target.
For the past few years I've been helping Sanaa and Regina in making people disappear. We wouldn't kill them but we would make them disappear making their problems ultimately go away too. Regina's dad would pay us plenty. So much that I have paid my way through college with benefits. I.E my condo that's paid for without any problems.
My mom would pay for college but I couldn't disappoint her. She thought for sure I would get a full ride. And I am just not that good in school. I'm gonna stop soon after I finish my degree. Sanaa is helping her parents orphanage and this is her source of income. As for Regina she wants to open a hair shop but she'd have to tell her father she wants to quit which won't happen any time soon.
Even though I worked tonight all I could think about was Dwayne. I am going to talk to him. I have to grow up.
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