forever & Always (Teen version )

Watching Edward

chap 22: Watching Edward

Bella pov

I was watching as he was talking to some lady that I haven't seen before. I was surprise he was talking to her. I wish he could hear me, but I know he can't. I see that she was telling him that she lost someone on the flight too. I wish I wasn't on the flight. I hope he knows he can move on. It would be hard for me to move on. Just watching him cry and talk to her about what happen .

"Edward, it's okay to move on," as tears stain my cheek.

I know he couldn't hear me, I just want him to move on and be happy. As I stand here and watch him, I break down. I only wish that he could see me so I can tell him it's okay, to move on. She was about to grab his hand when he stood up, he told her I can't do this, right now. I walked over to him, I know he can't see me or hear me, but I can see and hear him. I wish I can take your pain away, but I can't I'm sorry. I tried to touch him but I couldn't. I was standing behind him. I know you pain. I'm living with it myself. I tried to touch him but my hand goes through him.

As he turn around I could see there were more tears stains on his face. I wish I could wipe them away for him. I felt tears welled up in my eyes. Why me?

I just stood there watching him freak out on some poor woman. I don't blame him, but on someone else, it's not right. Only if I didn't get on that flight I would be here to cuddle up with him to make him laugh, smile, to hear his stupid jokes, but no I got on that flight. I wanted him to be happy. As tears stain my face. Edward started to walk away but she stop him. I just watching he push her away. More tears fall from my face.

"Edward, don't push her away, it's okay," I wanted him to move on.

It will take time for a broken heart to heal, that I know. He was cursing a lot but he didn't need to do it in front of her.

Edward

She sat down next to me. Why does she asked me to have a seat. She was sitting very close to, I was wondering how she find me. I really didn't want anyone to talk to me, I also didn't want to be rude and told her to leave me alone. So I decided to be nice, I couldn't stop the tears from staining my face. I did little know that Bella was watching me. I couldn't move on so soon. And I wasn't to happy about the freak thing.

"Excuse me, I didn't get your name?" she asked.

"It's, Edward Cullen," I managed to say between my sobs.

"My name is Makenna," she took an other tissues to hand over to me.

"So you have someone on the same exact flight as my Bella," I wiped my face.

"Yeah, his name was stefan, we were going to get married in the summer," Makenna blowing her nose.

I felt bad for her too, since they were going to get married this summer. But my heart were in pieces, my true love is no longer. There is no way that my heart will heal. I was thinking about dropping out of the program and going back to the states, I also knew Bella wouldn't be happy if I did that. I looked at Makenna she also had tears in her eyes. I wanted to wipe them away. I force a smile on my face. I know Bella would want me to move on, but how.

"Edward, I know there's some kind of group for greif," she wiped her eyes again.

"Yeah well I am in school here, that's where we met," as I was about to freak out again.

I seen her hand moving toward my that's when I jumped up. I turn to her to see her reaction.I wish I could but I know it won't be the same.

"I'm so sorry, I wish I could but I can't I can't move on right now."

"Look I'm just being nice and friendly, we both lost some we love, just give me your number and when I find a support group, I'll call you."

"That's it, nothing more."

"Edward, you got my word."

I know I hurt her, but I don't know if I'm ready to move on. I think it was to fast to move on. I gave her my cell phone number. She rose from the bench and gave me a hug, but I pushed her away.

"It's okay Edward," she forced a fake smile.

"It won't never a fucking okay," I looked away.