11:52 P.M.

him

It all ended where it started. With him.
I am nothing without him.
And now i am without him.
At exactly eleven fifty-two at late night on the
Three-hundred and sixty-fourth day of my
Love i received a call from him.
He told me he wants to take a break.
So that i can learn to love myself and i can truly love him.
All i could say was okay.
That is another thing i hated about myself, i never had the heart to argue.
And so i knew i would never love myself.
I knew we could never love each other.
and lastly i knew that i was over.

So if you are reading this journal that i kept for a short while,
Hello i guess. What you taught me is not
That the roses with the least thorns are the most beautiful,
But that the roses
With the most are.
Because they are more flawed.
You are the most beautiful among all roses.
When i met you, you had many thorns that i did
Not see.
In the end i had the capability to rid
You of your thorns that could leave scars on people.
But you had one left.
And unfortunately it pricked me.

So thank you for all the times we shared.
And all the times we would have shared.
Thank you for saving
Me a spot under the umbrella when it rained
And for holding my hand when
I was scared of the thunder.
Thank you for making me happy, and for holding
Me and my hands.

But most importantly, thank you
For teaching me the most important lesson
That they do not teach us
In grade school.
Thank you for teaching me how to love.
Thank you for letting me love you without you knowing it.
If you could have waited eight minutes
Before letting me go i would have told you this
With my voice.
But now i can only tell you by writing.
So thank you deeply.

I wish you luck, and i wish you the best.
I hope you live happily without me.
Because i could not have lived happily without you.
I pray that you find another love,
And that you get to confess your love to her.

Know that i loved the look in your eyes when i saw you,
When we held hands,
And when we shared our first and last kiss.
Keep these memories in your heart for me.

So goodbye, for the first and the last time.
It was nice while we lasted.
Just know that i loved you for the three hundred and
Sixty four days that you stayed by me.
And that i will love you for the rest of time.
I hope you forget me.
But i hope you know i love you.
And that i will never stop loving you.
Because in the end i did all three things to prove i truly
am in love with you.
When you read this,
I have lived for you.
I have died for you.
And i have killed for you.
So Goodbye to the guy i gave everything to.
Goodbye Min Yoongi.