In Our Secret Moments

Chapter 5

Sitting here drinking my tea while watching Justin walk up and down the bus to try to get cell service to call Jana and Nora, and the rest of the guys doing some sort of push-up challenge I feel like nothing has really changed. Maybe this whole thing will work out after all.

Buzz Buzz
Since it's a free day, do you wanna catch up over a drink or two? ;)
It's Beth, its so exciting being on Tour with one of my girlfriends, I quickly text her back and we make plans to meet up later.

I get up from the couch and walk from hectic room through to the bunks to get dressed for the day. As I get to my bunk I feel a a familiar hand wrap around my wrist and slip down to intertwine my fingers.
"Hey, I thought you were testing your masculinity with the guys?"
He spins me around so I'm facing him. "I think I proved my masculinity yesterday didn't I?"
A red tinge creeps over my face, "Unless you're doing that to everyone on this bus, I think you should get back there buddy!"
He grabs my face between his hands and brings his lips to mine in an urgent manner. "Being secretive is kinda fun, it was so hot how you had to bite that sheet when I-"
"Taylor!" I interrupt him
"You're right, I better get back and show them other show them how manly I am" He gives me one last chaste kiss on the lips before winking and heading back to the lounge.

A few hours later I find myself walking into a bar in downtown Detroit with Beth. We wait at the bar for a while, being ignored by the bartender in favour of all the women showing off their legs and cleavage, we're not really dressed the part. We make the most of the time and catch up on what's been happening since we've seen each other last, talked about our fur babies and just general funny stories. It feels good to chat with a girlfriend after being surrounded by guys for a week. We finally get our drinks and find a dimly lighted table tucked away in corner of the room.

"This is a pretty romantic spot for us hey?" Beth laughs "I could really do with some romance in my life. Its been way too long!"
I laugh along with her instead of agreeing, I really don't want to lie to my friend about my situation.
"I think I'm going to be a cat mom for the rest of my life!"' She says dramatically
"You'll find someone, they're not all scumbag cheaters!" I sip on my drink hoping this is the end of the relationship talk. No matter how much I want to talk to someone about it about taylor and I, we agreed no one would know apart from Zac...

Four gin and tonics later and we've both officially gotten the giggles.
"I need a man Hayles, it's been too long!" Oh god we're back on this subject again.
"How long has it been Beth, I'm sure its not that bad!"
After a few pensive moments and some counting on her fingers, she leans back into the couch with a worried look on her face. "It's been six months. Six months Hayley. Jesus. Am I officially a spinster?" She notices my face has bow dropped and I'm staring intently into my glass. "Oh God! I'm sorry Hayley! Here I am, complaining about this while you've only been divorced for what is it now? Three months?" I look up at her and meet her worried face with a small smile.
"It's okay actually. It's not the first time Chad and I have broken up, this time I'm just not running back to him. Besides we were basically separated for about 5 months before that." She grabs my hand and squeezes it, trying to comfort me. "In all honesty I've done my grieving over our marriage. If it was meant to work out it would of. It didn't, so I just have to have faith in Gods plan." I take a few gulps of my drink as images of Taylor flood my mind. Maybe all of the shit  I went though was just an elaborate plan to show me I wasn't with the right person after all...

I return my focus on Beth who is now starting to grin."Does that mean you have me beat on length of dry spell?" She says hopefully.
"Haha no actually, wait wouldn't it be the person with longest time since sex be the loser?"
"That's what I mean... who's the loser? Has it been more or less that 6 months?"
Well considering it is only around 11pm which means it's been less that 24 hours... "Sorry Beth, you're the loser here" I say with a laugh. Her jaw drops. "Don't tell me you slept with him after you found out what he did?!"
"Oh god no!"
She looks at me with a confused face and I realise the mistake I made. She's going to want to know details now.
"Don't go anywhere missy!"
She runs off, leaving me kicking myself. I need to come clean. Hopefully Taylor doesn't mind. Two people isn't that many people to know anyway... Beth comes back shortly after with a try of shots.
"Tequila, this calls for tequila" She hands me one and we simultaneously knock them back. "Are you ready to spill now or do I need to get your legless first?"
"Another for both of us. This will probably come as a bit of a shock to you"
Two more shots later and I'm officially drunk, my face is flushed and my inhibitions are down.
"Taylor" I finally let it out.
"Taylor?" She asks confused.
"I slept with Taylor"
"Taylor York?" She looks like she could be knocked over with a feather. "Oh my god. Oh my god. When?"
"Night before the tour and again then again the night before last and the yesterday. Well if we're being completely honest it was more than twice in the last 24 hours but yeah."
Her jaw somehow drops even further. If it it went any lower it would be hitting the table.
"Fuck"
"Very eloquent Beth." I hand her another shot and have another myself as well. "So what do you think?"
"Is this a rebound thing? Or is it a sex thing? Or is it something more?"
"Something more. Definitely. We've always had a connection -"
She cuts me off with a hug. "Oh Hayley this is awesome. He'll treat you the way you deserve to be treated. I could always picture you together.. Oh and you've known each other for so long. This is like a romantic movie!"
I beam back at her. "I'm glad we have your support, It's only new though, so we're keeping this under wraps, okay?"
"Sure thing!"
She leans over and gives me another hug.
"So. How's the sex?" She says as she wiggles her eyebrows mischievously.
"The best!"

After another two hours I find myself walking into a pitch black tour bus. Everyone must of had an early night... I get my phone out of my pocketput my flashlight on and stumble to my bunk. I definitely should not of had those shots. I'm going to hate myself in the morning. I pull back the curtain of my bunk to find Taylor lying in my bed on his phone.
"Hey you! Have a good night?" He whispers as I climb in next to him and pull back the covers.
"Really fun. What are you doing in my bunk?"
"Thought I'd surprise you" He rolls over so he's facing me.
"Babe! You're the best!" My speech is slightly slurred but I think he gets the gist of what I'm trying to say, I lean forward and kiss him. His breath smells like beer and cigarette smoke, it reminds me of our first night together.
"You taste like the bar I was in smelt like!" I exclaim in a whisper between kisses.
"And you taste like a distillery!"
"I'm so glad you're still up, you know how I get when I drink" I say as I unbutton his shirt and throw it to our feet.
"Let's just try to not be too loud this time, babe."