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my crush (>///<)

So... I have a crush on this one guy at my school... and a lot of people know about him and it seems like everyone that I know knows that I like him... but him. And I'm WAAAAY to scared to tell him. Honestly it's hard to even say one simple sentence to him because I get so nervous and my heart seems to beat so much faster when he's around. Anyway I just found out something terrible... he likes someone else. Not only does he like someone else, but they like him back and I know who she is......
Though I hear from multiple people that she is kinda mean and has an attitude but... I'm not sure if he knows that.
I just can't stop thinking about him and I want to tell him that the girl he likes might not be who he thinks she is. I also want to tell him that I like him, but I don't want to see or hear his reaction... I'm just too nervous.
And the worst part is that I can get jealous all I want but I can't do anything about it because... he's not mine. He most likely doesn't even really know who I am or that I even exists, though he has talked to me once or twice... it wasn't for very long and if he knows me, it's most likely just as 'that one odd Asian short girl that can draw. -_-
I just... CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM AND LIKING HIM NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY NOT TO! It's like.. ever since I liked him he's always on my mind, when I see him I get all flustered and awkward, my heart beats faster, I can't stop talking about him, I look at him when he's not looking, and I have changed my clothing style from... little childish comfortable girl to... school spirit comfortable teenager. And I always want to look a little bit presentable so that he'll FREAKING NOTICE MEEE! But, we all know that'll never happen... :(
But a girl can still dream and daydream right? XD
Sorry about ranting about my teenage single crush life, I just had to let this off my chest... :3