"Kayla!" Ben says nudging me awake.
"Shhhhh" I whisper "Still a tad hungover"
"We are at the venue"
"Ugggh" I moan
"You promised you'd walk around with me"
"I never promised"
"Just pretend you did"
"Fine" I say sitting up. I put on my black converse and walk out behind Ben.
I look out to see a large stage with lighting and wires hanging in every direction. On the stage there is already drums and microphones.
"Lets go" Ben says taking my hand. I flinch. We used to hold hands and skip down the hallway to go to algebra, so why does this feel different? We walk across the field and walk up the steps leading to the stage. I let go of his hand and walk up to the microphone.
"How stubborn are those scars that just won't fade away? Or a gentle reminder that now are better days? We'll be home so so dry your eyes you'll be okay" I sing into a empty mic.
"Kayla..." Ben starts.
I look at him with a 'don't you dare say it face'.
"Are you still...."
"No." I cut him off. "It's just my favorite song"
"Because we wrote it for you?"
"Well duh." I say and he goes silent. He leads me up a ladder and to the cat walk.
"Kayla...I need to tell you something." He says. Oh god. He's pregnant. What the bloody hell? why would he be pregnant? "Kayla...I have liked you for a long time and um...well I was wondering if you would want to go out..like more than friends"
My mouth drops and I can't find words. I know I want to be with him but I don't want to cause drama on the AA bus. And he's been my friend for like ever.
"Ben..." I finally say "I like you like more than a friend but there is just so much to think about"
Ben looks down. "I don't want to ruin our friendship either but I really do like you. It isn't just some dumb joke"
"I know Ben. I really do like you too, but I just need some time to think about it"
"I understand" Ben admits leaning over the railing of the catwalk to get a better look at the stage.
"Ben." I say taking his hands and spinning to look me in the eyes. "you are my best friend. I promise."
"I don't want to be" He mumbles "I want to be more than friends"
"Give me time to think" I say. I feel like this day is over between us. I walk down the cat walk and climb down the ladder, leaving Ben alone. I feel bad but maybe it's a good thing. I mean I may be head over heels for him but drama and ugh why is life so hard? I walk around the back of the amphitheater and see Danny smoking a fag. I try to turn around to leave, I really want to be alone but I hear Danny call.
"Kayla!" he shouts waving me over. I cringe but turn around
"Yeah?" I ask walking over to him slowly
"Whatcha doing out here?"
"Just getting fresh air"
"Why do you look so puzzled?"
"I don't know" I admit.
"Come here" He says engulfing me in a hug. I look up at him right as he kisses me.
