I've admitted to what I am in the empty darkness hoping that you'd answer. I want to do this but not without your approval yet you are gone no longer bound by the chains of life. But I keep waiting for an answer somehow your beliefs in the paranormal gave me hope yet no answer. Why is this? I know I'm a man now and that I can make choices all my own but I don't want to disappoint you. I was counting on you to live so that I could tell you myself and then everyone else but that never happened. I realize that I can only do what makes me happy and you'll approve no matter how strange. I will work my hardest to achieve the happiness that I desire because even if you're no longer here it's what you want for me and the rest of us If only I could hear you say it, father I'd be content.
