school is a living hell.
the hallways are bleak,
the noise too loud,
kids rushing to classes-
everything overlapping.I miss-
no,
I'm not allowed to miss her,
you can't miss someone you broke.when she died,
the school did assemblies for a week,
bringing therapists to school.I want to laugh,
at the girls labeled Populars,
as they dab their "teary eyes."
saying how they'd miss her.Hah,
yeah right....
ImNotOneToTalkThough
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A therapist isolates me,
puts me in a room with four walls,
each white,
all the same.His desk is wooden,
the classic dark wood,
that makes the screeching sound
when you scratch your nails on it.I sit in a char in front of it,
my defiant face strong,
arms crosser,
legs spread wide,
staring straight in the eye.We do this for a moment,
staring,
fighting for dominance.I look away first,
letting him win the first battle,
he scribbles something,
I say nothing.Fuck you.
I'm cursing him out,
in my head of course.
I'm not that defiant."Did you abuse Ruby Walkman in school?"
Okay, I lied,
I am that defiant.The curses are flying out of my mouth,
before I can even filter them."Fuck you. Fuck you, you son of a bitch! You son of a bitch! You know nothing understand me? Nothing."
fuck.
he scribbles something down,
very calmly,
oh so slowly,
before looking me in the eye."Did you abuse Ruby Walkman in school?"
I lean back into the chair,
I say nothing,
I look him in the eye.This time,
I don't let him win.-
I walk out of the therapists room,
a line of six students stare.Three are populars,
they're chatting like puppies,
they stop and stare,
love stricken.So hot and mysterious, they chat,
I glare.Two are bent over a sketchbook,
one is drawing feverishly,
the other light, soft strokes.I catch a glimpse,
and the feverish movements,
have made a beautiful face,
smiling with a single tear.The slow strokes,
have made two hands,
palm to palm,
there's a tear falling on one,
blood on the other.I say nothing.
Then, the last one,
She is different,
I've seen her before.She's writing in a notebook,
she glances up,
sees me,
and says:"You are not my antagonist."
I stop,
the Populars stop,
the sketchers stop,
she goes back to writing.I leave without a word,
her words replaying in my mind.You are not my antagonist.
I write her off as insane,
crazy,
but her eyes were with such clarity,
when they stared into mine.You are not my antagonist.
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regrets
Short Story[sequel to fat] - we all have our regrets, none are as bad as mine.