What about us?

Depression

Two chapters in a day? What's wrong with me? ;)

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Second phase: Depression

''So, how's Maggie?'' Matt asks eating the last piece of sandwich.

''Ugh I don't know'' El says dropping her head on the table ''I think she can't believe it. She's waiting for an answer form Alex or a call or something saying that it's all a big bad joke'' El says finally looking at her boyfriend ''But it's been a week since she's at the apartment and she's acting like my Maggie, making jokes and all''

''But she has to be a little affected by all this'' Matt says.

''Yeah, she is I think. A couple of days ago I realized that her eyes filled with tears while she was making breakfast, or the other night when we were watching Grey's Anatomy, but that's it'' El says ''Now that I think about it, I'm not sure it was for Alex or it's just because we were actually watching Grey's, you know?''

''Hey'' Matt stands up from his seat and goes to where El is. He offers her his hand and El takes it, Matt guides them to the couch ''We all have different times and I'm sure she will come around, trust me'' Matt says smiling.

''I just want her to cry and take all out'' Matt nods ''I've been talking to Kara, remember? Alex's sister?'' Matt nods again ''She says the Alex has been crying and drunk all week. Not that I want that to happen to Maggie, but she is not showing any emotions about the break up''

''Again, give her time, my love'' He says kissing El's temple.

''Thanks'' El says pecking Matt's lips ''Gonna head home now'' she says standing up ''Love you''

''Love you too''

-:D-

''Mags?'' El says as soon as she opens the apartment door and she doesn't see Maggie on the couch ''Are you home? I bought us food!'' El drops the take out bags in the kitchen counter ''It's vegan'' she doesn't get an answer.

'That's weird' El thought.

She finally goes to the room that she and Maggie had been sharing for the last week, she finally finds Maggie with the headphones on and a bunch of Polaroids all over the bed. And Kleenex. A lot of Kleenex.

She slowly approaches to Maggie, who is currently looking at a picture of her and Alex.

'Oh Lord. She is listening 'What about us'' El mentally face palms.

El sits on the bed and that's when Maggie realizes that she is here with her. She turns the music off and takes off the headphones.

''Hey'' El greets in a whisper.

''It's been a week'' Maggie says and El nods ''She hasn't called'' she frowns.

''I know'' El says sitting closer to Maggie.

''What am I going to do? I love her so much that I feel like I can't breathe without her. I-I feel like I'm falling. Like-Like I have nowhere to go. I don't even know how I lived all this years without her. She taught me so much, El. So much'' tears starts to fall from Maggie's eyes and El is by her side, hugging her in a heartbeat ''I love her so much that it hurts''

''I know, I know'' El says hugging her tightly, trying to calm her down.

''We really are not going back together'' Maggie says ''we really are not going to finish that list of firsts or-or going to have a dog and fight over the name'' Maggie sobs ''I'm not get to call her mine anymore'' she sobs harder and a new round of tears starts to fall again.

''Mags, why don't you call your boss and tell him that you need a few days off?'' El says when Maggie stops crying a little ''I don't know if it's a good idea for you being on the streets if you are not one hundred percent focused on it'' Maggie nods.

''Okay''

''What do you want to do now? I got us food if you want some'' El suggests.

''I'm not hungry'' Maggie says tightening her grip on her friend's waist.

''Do you wanna keep listening to 'What about us' in loop and cry till you fall asleep?'' El says making Maggie chuckle.

''I'd love that'' Maggie nods.

''Okay then. Lucky for you, I have Spotify premium''

''Lucky for me, you are my best friend''

''True'' they laugh and Maggie press the play button.

''I still can believe that I'm letting you listen to this''

After two hours of Pink and crying, Maggie falls asleep. El tries to get up without bother Maggie too much. She takes her friend's boots off and after clean the mess of Kleenex and all the photos, she puts a blanket over Maggie. Before leaving the room, El grabs her phone and looks for Kara's number as she walks to the kitchen.

Kara picks up almost immediately.

''El, hi!''

''Hi, Kara. How are you?''

''Good, you?''

''I'm fine. Alex?''

''She's starting to work tomorrow, so she went to bed early, without scotch tonight'' Kara let go a breath ''Maggie?''

''At least she cried today''

''Really? Was it bad?''

''Well, that depends. I came from Matt's apartment and I found Maggie with a bunch of Polaroids all over the bed and listening to 'What about us' and then she realized that they would never finished some list of firsts or something because they were never getting back together and then she cried, so we kept listening to Pink until she felt asleep''

''Yikes. Alex mentioned that list too. Well, the other day Ales listened to 'Coming home' all day long, with a bottle of scotch as company, so yeah''

''It's killing me watching her like this, Kara''

''Yeah, I know. It's killing me too. However-'' Suddenly Kara stops talking.

''Kara? Are you there?'' El asks worried.

''Yes! Emm... I got to go! Because the... the-the dog needs to go for a walk'

''You don't have a dog, Kara'' El says trying to hide the laugh on her voice.

''Y-Yeah! I know that! Puff...It's my friend's dog''

''Yeah, sure thing. The fire is two blocks from my apartment. If you want to pass by after, feel free to do it''

''I-I don't know what you are saying'' Kara says with a nervously laugh.

''The glasses don't work''

''Don't tell Alex you know''