How I found my Player 1 (Michael Mell x Reader)

The Truth

(Y/n) P.o.V:

"Michael...", I began. I swallowed. He sat on the edge of the bathtub and tried to smile. He tried. A wave of emotions, memories and guilt feelings flooded me. I felt tears rise, but for the first time I didn't stop them. The first tear rolls down my cheek. "M-Michael. I- I... I am s-s-so sorry."

I swallowed again and my full Body began to shiver. I sobbed. I let out heartbreaking sobbs. I fell on my knees. My head hanging down and my tears dropping on the cold tiles. I sobbed and sobbed. I tried to calm myself down, but my breakdown got worse. I tried to suffocate my sobbs. My throat hurted from crying. And suddenly two arms were wrapped around me. Everything inside me drawed together. 

"I- I am so.. so.. so incredibly sorry.. I am such a terrible person... I am so selfish and- and- and... dumb and stupid and I just h- hate myself for h- h- hurting you. I just w-wished we didn't m-meet, so you would have been spared all this t-t-trouble. I am so sorry for everything. You ... you don't have to believe me and I u- understand if you just want to slap me and then delete me out of your life. But everything I said after I took in the Squip.. it wasn't  me.", I said, still sobbing in between. 

He just caressed my head and held me in his arms. "I know it wasn't you. I knew it when I saw you in that outfit. I knew you were lost in this Body, that looked like you. I knew your Squip took over the controll. At least I just hoped so. I hoped that you didn't turn into this "It-Girl" and I am so reliefed, that you are not. I forgive you.", he said calmly.

I sobbed again. I rubbed my eyes and I knew I looked like a panda but I didn't care. I looked up and glanced into his eyes. They were still red and puffy, but I guess mine were too. I breathed in and stuttered: "H- How can you not... *gulp*  hate me for the terrible things I did to you?"

He smiled a bit. "How could I hate someone sweet, innocent, beautiful and perfect like you?"

I blushed and stroked some hair behind my ear. 

"There's my girl. There's my (Y/n).", he said. He gently placed a kiss on my forehead. I smiled and sat up. Than I took his face in my Hands. I stroked a few  a wisps of hair out of his face.

"Maybe you will hate me after telling you this... but Michael Mell?...

I love you. I love you so incredibly much. And before  I get back sober and the Squip will take the controll back you need to know, that you are the person I love and I just need you...", I confessed and searched answers in his eyes. His eyes radiated pure joy and he hugged me tightly. "You don't know how glad I am. ", he whispered in my ear.

After we let go each other he looked deeply in my eyes. He lifted up my chin and gently kissed my lips. Thousands and thousand of butterflies were flying inside my whole Body. Pure Joy and love went through my veins. I shivered everywhere but I loved it. I blushed and gave him my happiest smile. 

"And you know what?", he asked sweetly. I just smiled. 

"I love you too. I love you so so much, (Y/n). And you don't know how Long I wanted to confess my feelings, but I was so scared. I was so incredibly scared of the consequenses.", he said and I saw that he was crying. Crying with joy. Not only he cried. We both did. 

"You don't have to. We love each other... and that's all that counts.", I said and we placed our foreheads against each others. I shutted my eyes and enjoyed the moment. 

Suddenly Michael asked, "And Rich and you?" I just shook my head. "Rich is also squipped. But his Squip Forces him to do things against his will. Same like me. By the way...",I said.

We stood up and sat on the bathtub edge. "What shall we do against my squip?", I asked. 

Michael told me the story about him and Jeremy fighting, because of the Squip. He also told me about his friends uncle who got into a mental Hospital trying to get the Squip out of his head and how Michael ended up in the bathroom. 

"Michael I am so scared... What if I also end up in a mental hospital. I can't take it anymore.", I uttered and pulled up my sleeve to show him my scars and cuts. He gasped. He held my hands and said, "First of all: I am shortly before to find out how to get the Squip out of your head... when you were hanging with Rich and the others I did a little research.", he said smirking. 

But then his look went from mischievous to serious. "Second: (Y/n), Dont you ever.. And I mean never ever hurt yourself again. You need to promise me to never ever do that.", he said. I nodded, but pulled up his sleeve, "But you need to promise me the same..."

He nodded and we just looked into each others eyes. He leaned in and finally our lips connected. We just melted into one perfect, passionately kiss and I enjoyed every second. I need him and he Needs me. And I can't live without him. I love this dork and everyone should know that. He slightly bit my bottom lip and I let out a quiet moan. He smiled into the kiss and it got consensual. His tongue demanded entrance, which I gave him. 

My hands wandered to his hair. His right hand held my cheek and the other one was wrapped around my waist. He picked me up like I am feather and I wrapped my legs around his waist. He carried me to the washbasin and sat me on it. He kissed my cheek and then placed little kisses down my neck...

"I love you, Michael.", I moaned. He stopped the kissing and deeply looked into my eyes. Then he gave me a gentle kiss on my lips. 

"I love you, (Y/n)."