I feel like I'm not special. Everyone in my school has their own special thing that they are recognized for, like one of my friends is amazing at art, another at dance, another at computers. I've done dance for nearly the same amount of years she has, but she is the one recognized for it. I get that I tend to be a private person, but that's also because people don't tend to ask me what I like to do. I've also been singing for a while, and I really love to do it, and I'm even in Glee Club, but when everybody thinks of singing, I know that they don't think of me. Even though I go to a relatively small school (only around 700 students), and my grade has around 55 people, I feel like I'm always forgotten. This year we had new students join our school, and one of them really kind of gets on my nerves. She immediately connected with one of my friends, and started hanging around him a lot, which I don't mind. But when she started hanging around two of my best friends (both guys), it started to really get on my nerves. I've been working on friendships with them for the last 3 years, and she just took them away immediately. Now, when I only have a few very good friends that I hang around, that tends to be a problem. Whenever I try and talk to her, and try to be her friend, she just gives me this look like, why are you trying to talk to me, you don't deserve to be friends with me. And she only gives it to me. All of my other friends absolutely love her, and it's getting to the point where I might transfer schools because I don't want to be ignored anymore. Ok, that got a little off topic. Even though I keep trying to find my special thing, it seems as if everything else is taken. Some of my friends are trying to start a band. Now that seems awesome when you think about it, but I heard about the idea on a discord call with two of my best friends, both guys. One of the guys on the discord call had just started guitar, and he asked the other guy on the call to start playing guitar because they needed another guitarist. Now, I've been playing guitar for nearly 8 years, so this kind of hit a soft spot with me, that even though he knew I knew how to play really well, he asked the other guy. And then when I found out one of my other friends was also playing the guitar (girl), I got even more upset because I was trying to convince myself that it would just be all boys, but it wasn't. That night, I was just so done I just started crying. I only cry if I'm extremely upset about something. I'm just done with all of this. There are some points where I just want everything to end, and this is one of them.
Thanks for reading, sorry for getting off-topic. Just know, if anybody ever wants to rant to a person, just DM me, or if you want to rant with other people, leave a comment. If any of you just want to talk, my dms are always open.
