I think of myself as a snow flake. I try to be like the others but I can't because no two snow flakes are the same. I try so hard to fit in but I can't because I'm so different from the others. So I put on a smile every day and try my hardest to be like other people. One reason I'm never that happy is I've never ever had a fatherly figure in my life. My mom is dating an amazing guy but I feel awkward around him. I think of him as my dad but he doesn't look anything like me. He has brown eyes I have blue. He has black hair I have dark blonde. We have something's in common but not much. He spends the night at my house all the time and I don't really like it but I tell my mom I don't care. My dad dad left before I was born my parents never got married and had me. He didn't want any more kids because he already had 3 and didn't want another. My mom was heart broken and my grandparents where so mad at my dad. All I know about him is that his first name is Mike. Apparently I get my green blue eyes from him. I get my hair from him. So every day I have a reminder that I was born into this world by accident and I don't have any father in my life. My friend leilah has both her parents but they are divorced. So that's why she is my closest friend because she gets me. But I know every day to hold on. Because mabey I don't have a father for a reason. Mabey my mom and her boyfriend are going to get married and I will have someone who is a fatherly figure in life. But who knows...........
A/n
Hey guys so please listen to the song it will help you understand more. But I hope you understand now how hard it is for me. But I don't want people to feel super bad for me or anything but if I don't update alot that's why and yeah byyyeeee
-Addy
