Bittersweet | •Loss & Learn•

12-04-17

Monday,

Well bitch I haven't wrote on this diary in bout a year cuz I forgot it existed and that's it.

I just felt like writing cuz I was on Wattpad and bored so yah. This day is Monday and I want to fucking kill myself because that means school and school means trash.

Basically I think we have like a week or two left of second semester and I'm failing pre-algebra with a 48.

"Geesh" ik but like that shit hard and the bitch cant teach. Basically we learn sum very vaguely and the next day BOOM test. It's all trash if you ask me 😐

But anyways the day already started off bad because my ugly ass bald head ass mom was rushing me and my brother out of the house to go to school. Then she said she was gon hit me with the iron if ian get out her way and I was like "I want you to." And that ugly bitch got madder but oh well I hope that bitch get in a car wreck on the way home from work ugly ass.

I think she mad cuz her bf cheating on her but I'm not sure fr so ian gon speak on that. But ion really gaf cuz I hate that bitch anyways so I hope she suffers.

You probably think I'm being a little hard on her and she's just not a morning person but she told me, "YOU SHOULD'VE JUST STAYED IN GULFPORT WITH YOUR GRANDPA CUZ YOU WERE ON UR SHIT THEN WITH THEM TREATING U LIKE SHIT SO MAYBE I SHOULD TREAT U LIKE SHIT."

That shit hurt my feelings tho😂 Ian gon lie a bitch was finna cry.

^Me in the passenger seat^

But yah so my morning is already trash (oh yah I forgot) my fucking PORTABLE EARBUDS BROKE.

Well not broke like unusable but broke so they are deformed and cracked and shit and I think my dog did it and I was about to throw that lil bitch across the room but luckily he was upstairs. @peta

But yah so my morning is trash. Also I have on a dirty ass shirt because my moms dumb ass didn't watch the clothes over the weekend but ian gon speak on that.

Atleast I got a haircut over the weekend so I guess I look cute, even with these big ass pants on. Plus it's some random wet shit on my ass. But other than that I look cute.

But anyways I'm not a morning person like I want to scream because I hate school so much and right now I'm only in first block.

And these bitches are musty and smell like shit and I barely want to be here in the first place so who wants to smell ass in a place you don't want to be, ISSA DOUBLE WHAMMY.

My first block teacher always wants me to do actual work and I hate his ass because he's too pushy and ugly (pick a struggle bitch.) Not ugly shaming but just saying. And I'm pretty sure nobody wants to start out their week at school with a damn bellringer.

I literally don't fuck with nobody in my first block like it's sad. In all my other classes I talk to people but in this class nope, I'm just a lone ass wolf. It's pretty bad because just imagine if we had the stay in first block the whole day because of mysterious circumstances and my phone went dead. I'd be a lonely hoe. And we all know thats bound to happen in this crazy ass school.

Not for nothing tho it's sum cute ass people in first block but you can't talk to eye candy.

I never do work in my first block but I have a 73 so I'm pretty pleased with that considering I hate the teacher and make it very obvious.

I really don't fuck with anybody in this trash ass school honestly because all they care about is looking cute and scamming people. That sounds like me but I actually have a heart under it all.

Like I talk to one girl whose name I don't want to speak but she's fake and I don't click with her fr so I'm thinking about going back to my table full of fat girls with nowhere to sit.

When I find a friend (in real life) the only reason they want to be my friend is either to have a gay friend or because they like me. I have a best friend but we don't see each other fr because we go to separate schools. She's like the only person that understands me (literally) and I'd hate to lose her because she's all I have that's a friend in the world. *Cue emotional music*