Melancholy

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Don't tell me I am.
Don't lie to try to make me "feel better".
I know I'm nothing special.
Just a girl with a death wish.
Wishing death came soon to her, But each day she grows impatient.
Thinking of ways to go peacefully in the room with four white walls and few posters, The room she calls her bedroom.
"Why doesn't anyone seem to care?"
Ah yes, Always pondering that question like it was a difficult decision to be made.
You see, She's so quiet. No one seems to notice because she doesn't allow things to physically change to where the point everyone asks if she's okay.
If anyone asks, "I'm fine". But if you really care, You'd read between those two words knowing that in fact I'm not fine.
Her hands itching to find something to take the edge off, just for a little bit.
What's just one cut?
What's just two?
No one will see, Right?
If you look closely, Close enough, You'll see tired and hollow eyes.
Not a pretty picture, I know.
But who's to really look? Who's to really look beyond those tired eyes of hers to see pain?
She's hurting each and everyday. She just wants it to end. She knows it won't though.
And one day, One day. She will no longer be able to bear the weight of all that pain upon her shoulders.
She'll stop running. She'll let go. Who well save her? Who will save her before her last breath goes?
No longer fighting, No longer trying to survive, No longer "here" anymore.
She slips away, Far too out of reach for anyone to save her now.
R.I.P My Darling.
"We could have saved her"
But we didn't
We. Didn't. Save. Her.
We thought she was just a quiet shy girl who had so much ahead of her.
Don't you guys know? That her depression was silent?
Silently crying for help, Silently wishing someone would ask if she's okay, Silently wishing she could hold on for just little bit longer.
How can such a beautiful girl, Such a beautiful girl feel so much pain? No, It isn't about looks or what you think happens in her life.
She needed help and that day, Was her last day. The day she let herself slip silently between everyone's fingers.
Darling, I hope you find your peace and you'll be reunited with friends and family soon.
Darling, I wish you would have came to me.
Darling, I'm so sorry i didn't come sooner.