Ethan's P.O.V:
Today..
Is the day...
I get to tell my twin brother that I'm in love with him..
Like legit in love with him..
The feeling and shit started when I was 15 years old,when me and gray begun hitting puberty,and that made us both pretty hot.
So one frikin day,I was just in the roof,just admiring the sun that's slowly climbing up,loving the taste of orange,purple and pink all blended together in am ombre,a smile planting on my face.
Till he came,and sat next to me,knowing that I've loved admiring the sun when it started rising.
"Feeling the moment e?",he asks,me sensing him smile as he talks,making me smile.
"Yeah,its just beautiful,I could admire it for hours",I responded,turning my head to look at him,and he looked so focused onto the sun.
Then a feeling started sparking inside of me,as my eyes started taking in his features.
His gorgeous hazel eyes that mirrored the reflection of the colorful,ombre sky.
His caramel hair that danced with the wind,a few strands wrapping up together like ropes being tied.
His pink,plump lips that looked so kissable,so delicate,that it sent my mind into a faze.
My thoughts were cut off with Grayson turning his head to my direction,making my see a full glimpse of his face.
He looked so gorgeous
"Now I do understand why you always wake up pretty early so you could see the sunrise",he says smiling.
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I'm now an 17 year old teenage boy,who's depressed and has a heart that is acting like a wild creature.
Good thing our ribs have cages.
I suddenly hear a knock on the door,which startled me.
"Ethan ?",Grayson asks,knocking on the door.
"Yeah?",i answer,trying to sound casual.
"Can I come in?",he says,as I hear him lean against the door.
"Yeah dude",I reply,my heart starts beating out of my chest as the door opens,revealing Grayson shirtless with sweatpants.
Holy friking shit,why right now! He's making me wet!
He walks over to my bed,making me feel the bed sink as he sits beside me,a cute frown on his face.
He takes in a deep breath,then opens his mouth to the question that I was dreading to hear.
"Why have you changed suddenly?"
"What! No im okay! Really!",i try my hardest to act well as Grayson's frown deepens.
Over all,he's my twin brother,of course he has to feel the way that I feel.
"No,you've been ignoring me,and you dont even hang out with me as much,I've always tried talking to you but all that you awnser is you getting "tired" or "having an headache".You were not the Ethan that I knew,you've used to be funny,and laugh more often,but now you're just pure black and white.I just dont get it,I want you to get back to who you are.So please,just please tell me,what happened to you,what is the reason!?",he says,fully sobbing at the last sentence,breaking my heart.
I breathed out the breath that was stuck down my throat,and wished for the best.
That's when I totally lost it.
"You know why,you know WHY have I've been depressed lately,you know WHY HAVE I BEEN CUTTING MYSELF!?",i say,my voice raising at each sentence,then show him the cuts on my wrist,making him tear up more while he covers his mouth with his hand.
"Because IM IN LOVE WITH YOU,I JUST DONT GET IT,I KNOW ITS WRONG BUT IT FELT RIGHT TO ME,I SWEAR TO MY DAD'S GRAVE THAT WAS NOT MY CHOICE,IT WAS MY HEART'S,AND I'VE KEPT IT SINCE I WAS 15 GRAYSON,BECAUSE I WAS SCARED OF YOU LEAVING ME,MY BEST FRIEND LEAVING ME!",i say,sobbing pretty loud at each sentence,while Grayson just stared at me,eyed wide in shock,and his jaw dropped to the floor in surprise.
I took in a deep breath,to keep my sobbing level on low,making in a silence between us.
"Now,if you hate me,dont worry,I'll just pack my stuff a-",I say,but get cut off by grayson's lips capturing mine,making me stumble back in surprise.
I didn't kiss hack at first from how shocked I am,but soon enough i kissed back,moving my hand to his cheek,cuping it while the other hand pushes his neck in,making my deepen in the kiss.
His tough touches the bottom of my lip,asking for entrance,and I give it to him,making our toughs dance together as one,as I collide our lips again,hearing grayson stiff as a feel a tear falling down in between our lips,makimg my taste the salty water.
I move my hands to his 6 pack,tracing every line that I've felt.
As i pull back,he smiles,showing off his dimples,and lays on my chest,which makes my swipe my hands through his hair.
"You know,I've loved you since 15,too"
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I feel like I'm writing a lot in this book..
