In This Dark Room

I sit in a dark room

Unaware

Of all the things

Hiding there.

Secret words

Broken sanity

I'm just here

Waiting for clarity.

Waiting for things

That will never come

Waiting for things

To be undone.

I sit here braving

My secret storm

Waiting on someone

To keep me warm

Or bring an umbrella

To shield the pain

Or maybe to shield

The tears that reign

Over my life

That never relent

I wish.. With the rain

All the pain went

To another place

Another dark room

With another person

Under a different moon.

But that's not the case

Nor the situation

I'm stuck here

In my own desperation.

I'm stuck in this cell

Of my own construction

Trying to save myself

From destruction.

I'm trying to reach you

From behind the bars

But you can't look

Beyond my scars

Or where I've been

And where I am

You don't see

That i can

Be saved from this

Cold, dark place

All it takes

Is your embrace

To set me free

From all this pain

Will you help me

Or refrain.

I can't stay here

Any longer

I know you say

That I'm stronger

Than all of this

And I wish I was

But I'm not now....

Simply because

A person can only

Bear so much

Before they take

That fateful plunge

Into the land

Of no return

Where there's fire

And everything burns.

As I watch

My saving grace

Turn from me

And walk away..

I realize now

I'm all alone

And that my heart

That's made of stone

Has the strength

For one more try

So I will get up

Or I will die

So I stand

On my two feet

Refusing to let myself

Be beat.

First one foot

And then the other

And from my mouth

The words I mutter

"I may lose

This constant battle

With myself

But all that matters

Is that I try

And that I never quit

Fighting... To live..

Until I win.

~Angel~