We Found Another Way

We are one and the same

Merlins pov

As I began to blow out the candles in the room Morgana came in she looked scared. "Is Gaius here?" she asked. "No he's not here, he should be back soon though." I said. I know what is wrong with but I can't decide to tell her the truth or keep it hidden for her own good.

" I need to speak to him! Where is he?"

"He's gone to see the king." I said. Her eyes started to tear up something is wrong. "What's wrong?" I asked. She looked away from as if she was debating to tell me as if she didn't trust me. "You can trust me, Morgana, you know you can" I said. She turned back looking me straight into my eyes. "I'm scared Merlin." She said in a soft voice. She continued " I don't understand anything anymore. I need to know what's happening." She was so terrified all I wanted to do was to comfort her. "Please." she said. I can't tell her or Gaius will kill me.

"Gaius will be back soon. He'll help you."

"He won't. I don't want anymore remedies! They wont do any good." She said. I started to back away only for her to come closer. "It's magic, Merlin." She said. Lying would be the only way out of this. But for how long is the question. "What" I said sounding surprise. "We're friends. You know I wouldn't make this up." She said. I don't think I can keep lying to her. "Of course" I said. " Then you believe me?". I can't answer that. "You think it's magic, too" She asked. She continued " Please, Merlin, I just need to hear someone say it, so I don't have to keep feeling like I'm imagining it."

''I really wish there was something i could say." I said. She turned and started to walk away "Morgana! Wait!" I said. She stopped walking and turned back around. " Yes Merlin." She said. I walked up to her and said "I believe you okay. I knew how you feel."

"How could you possibly know how I feel Merlin." She argued. "Because I have magic too." I replied. By the look in her eyes I could tell that she didn't believe me. "Look I know you don't believe me but I'll show." I said. I held out my hand and whispered "Gal-qwir in nin bor." A rose grew out if my hand and I put it in her hair. She looked shocked at first and then jump into my arms."I'm not alone. I'm not alone. I'm not imagining things." She said. I held her for a while to comfort her after all it has been a eventful day. " Teach me." I heard her say. I pushed her to arms length and looked at her straight in her eyes. "What?" I said. "Teach me magic." she said once more. "No" and I began to walk away. "But Merlin you are the only here in Camelot that I know that use magic so teach me."

"I can't do that I'm not even a master at magic yet."

"Then we'll learn together at night. No one will know."

I took a deep breath and sighed. "Let me think about it and I'll let you know tomorrow Morgana." I said. "Thank you so much Merlin. We'll start tomorrow after I dismiss Gwen for the night okay? Okay." She said. She kissed my cheek and left. "I didn't even say-" was all I got out before the door closed. I shook my head and hoped that this doesn't end with either of us getting banished or worse executed. I'm just going to go to bed.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Next Morning~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

After I woke up Arthur we walked to the dining hall. Morgana and Gwen was already there with Uther. "Good Morning Arthur." he said. "Good morning father." Arthur replied. He sat down and I made my way to stand by Gwen. "Arthur is it alright if I could borrow Merlin for the day." Morgana asked. Please say no. Please say no. " Why you have Gwen right here to help you." He answered.

"Well unlike you I give my servant days off and after breakfast Gwen will spend the rest of her day with her father. So can I borrow Merlin for the day."

"Are you sure you want Merlin?"

"Yes, Arthur.Merlin will be okay "

He let out a sigh and said "Fine you can have him."

"Thank you. After breakfast Merlin I need you to meet me in my chambers, okay?" She said. I nodded my head and said "Of course My lady." She gave me a smile and went back to eating her breakfast. When breakfast was finished I went to Morgana's chambers. I was about to open the door when her door suddenly opened. I came face to face with Morgana. She pulled me inside and then locked the door.

" Okay Merlin we should get started with my first lesson to control my magic." She said. I looked at her dumbstruck. "Morgana I didn't agree to teach you. I said that I would think about it." I said firmly. She started to pout and I mean like a child. Her eyes had gotten big. Those big greens that I can't say know to. I'm going to cave I know for a fact that I'm going to cave. "To hell with it. Fine Morgana I'll teach you." I said. Then she jumped into my arms embracing me. "Thank you Thank you Thank you so much Merlin." She said. I hugged her back and then pulled away. She grabbed my hand and dragged me to her table. "Okay Morgana, we will start with learning to control your magic" I said. "Okay" She said.

"Right now I know that you let your emotions go out of control. When you are upset, frustrated, excited, or even scared your magic starts to come out. For example when you are mad things tend to fly across the room. Am I right." I said.

"Yes but how though?" She asked.

"It's because when you get mad you want to throw things across the room so that is what will happen." I explained

"Okay, but what about the other emotions?" She asked

"Okay with being excited like really excited anything could happen really. With sadness if you are really really sad you can cause the a storm to happen. With being scared is the worst thing that could happen. Whatever you think in a time of fear will happen to a certain extent." I said. "Was I going to fast Morgana?" I asked. She shook her head as a no but I could tell that it was a yes. " Are you sure?" I asked. She unconventionally said "Yes Merlin. I completely understand."

"Morgana its okay to say you don't understand and we'll go as slowly as needed." I assured her. "Fine I don't understand at all Merlin. Naturally I learn by example and doing things myself." She said. Note to self Merlin: Teach hands on not by reading or talking. " Okay Morgana we are gonna make you very very very mad and lets see what happens." I said. "How are you gonna make me that mad?" She said. She'll find out hopefully she won't try to take my head off.

"Well Morgana you see you remember your favorite dress. You know the green one that hug every curve of your body. The one that was supposedly stolen." I said very nervously. I started to retreat back to the wall very slowly. "Well Arthur may or may not have destroyed it." I said.

"He did what." She growled I swear if looks could kill I'll be dead. " You see he was looking threw your room for his favorite dagger and he accidentally ripped it in half." I said. Soon enough my theory was right. A vase flew past my head to the wall behind me following after was goblets and a fork. So I ducked.

"MERLIN!!!!!" She yelled. "Yes" I answered very quietly. "Was that a lie?" She asked. I nodded " Of course it was. Arthur didn't destroy it. He ripped the side of it so I took it to sew it up." I explained. She let out a sigh. "Merlin don't do that again. I don't want to hurt you." She said. I turned and looked down to the floor and saw the mess she made. "Look at this mess Morgana now I have to clean." I whined. Just for the record I don't whine I just want to see her smile and she did. That gorgeous smile that I come to love with the light in her eyes that makes her glow. "I'm sorry Merlin. Gwen can clean it it." She said with a smile. "Gwen's not here though you gave her the day off remember." I said with a smile. "Oh yes. How about you bring us lunch?" She asked. I nodded my head and went to get our lunch. "Morgana will you practice until I Get back." I said.

"Of course I will" She responded before I closed the door. As I got our lunch I couldn't help but think of how adorable yet scary she looked when she gets mad. I'm starting to fall in love with her and I don't I cant stop. This is going to be one long day.