Shyan Smuts/One-Shots (ON PAUSE)

👻 Dearest 👻

Dear Shane,
I didn't know how to explain to you how I felt. I never knew how to do in anything right, so I never tried to tell you how much I loved you. I knew that I would fuck it up and you would ether laugh at me, or never talk to me again.

I just lost interest I guess, life just isn't... worth it anymore. It seems as though I was out on this earth by accident, but I guess I was a lucky accident, because I ended up finding you.

It so rare in life that you meat such a golden-hearted person like you, and I waisted you. You're so precious to everybody and I waisted you, and I feel so bad, but you'll never except me.

I saw the way you looked at me after what I did. The hate boiled in your eyes as you watched me sit at my desk. The way you laugh with other like we used to laugh. Maybe it's my time to go. Guess God felt bad for me so he gave me you, then realized how unworthy I was and decided that my life would reach its peak.

I'm so sorry for what I did, and if I could backs and tell myself to stop I would. I tried so hard to say sorry but you wouldn't have it... and that's fine.

I'm sorry I was so bad to you when I was alive...

Yours Truly,
Ryan Bergara