Strength || KNJ ✔️

30.

Haneul's P.O.V

Three years later... (A/N: it's gonna take years to end if I don't skip the time ehe)

Sitting upside down, as usual. I heard a sudden scream and a loud thud which shocked me. "Haneul! Haneul! Haneul!!!" - Namjoon screamed, as I got up quickly because of the sudden scream.

"WHAT?!" - I screamed back.

"It's happening!!!!" - he screamed.

"What is it???" - I screamed back.

"This Friday!" - he screamed.

"Ah~ the proposal?" - I asked. He nodded with a smile. Siena and Namjoon have been dating for years. I'm happy that they last. Despite Namjoon's idol life, and Siena's business life. They understand well. I felt a stab on my heart.

Between these years, I started loving Namjoon. Remember, I used to just like him? Now, I love him. And it's burdening me. Some times it hurts seeing the both of them all happy and sweet. But some times, I'm happy for them. It's such a confusing thing. I don't understand either.

Even though I love Namjoon, no one knows. I've never treated him differently. Like example, some girls act all girlish in front of their crush or basically different. But not for me. I stayed the boyish me, stubborn, annoying. So it wouldn't be obvious to Namjoon. I don't want him to know. I don't want to hurt myself.

Loving him alone, is all good for me. Even though he loves someone else. I've never hated Siena at all. I always, maybe, adore her? She's pretty. She has a great personality too. She fits well for Namjoon. After all these years, I start off by seeing Namjoon as a friend.

Then as my best friend. After that, I like him. And now, I love him. But he's still my best friend. I'm the most hurtful person. But no one knows. They all see me as if I'm fine and nothing really happened. I didn't even tell Imo about the feelings I have for Namjoon. I know my destiny will be this way.

Like I say, loving him, without him knowing, is the best already. Years of dating, Namjoon finally decides to make Siena, as his wife. He told me that a month ago. He told me while calling. I cried silently while talking to him. It's the worst day ever. Even though I know that I'd never get any chance, it hurts in every way.

Namjoon says I've been very quiet nowadays. It's all because of his plan, the proposal. As much as I hate lying to him, I have to. Saying I'm just tired. I know he knows it's a lie. But he just decide to take it.

"So, you've bought the ring?" - I asked. We sit next to each other.

"Oh god, no. I forgot." - he said.

"Then? Go and buy it. Friday is coming in 2 days." - I said.

"Can you follow me? Please!" - he asked, pulling my arm.

"Why must I?"

"You'll be my adviser." - he said.

"Adviser?"

"Please Haneuullllllll~" - he whined cutely. As much as I hate aegyos, I can't really resist his. Because his aegyos are funny. It's not cute, it's funny.

"Fine." - I said plainly.

"Assa~!" - he cheered.

"When?"

"Umm... tonight? After I'm done with some recordings." - he said.

"Okay. I'll be here." - I said. He nodded.

"Wait. Where are you meeting her?"

"A restaurant. I'll only propose, at Han River." - he said. I gave a nod as I felt all restless. Sigh. It hurts so much. He caress my head and left. As soon as he leaves, a tear fell. I wipe it away quickly and sighed.