What Life is Like

I Promised

I was having a bad day,

I didn't talk a lot

I didn't know what was wrong

I felt real off.

I promised.

I went home

No one noticed how upset I was

No one saw how hurt

I just went to my room.

I promised.

Things only got worse

I couldn't talk to anyone.

No one would even understand

I felt so alone.

I promised.

That night I was alone

I looked at the ceiling

I thought about what people

Actually think about me.

I promised.

This only made me worse.

Why do I feel worse.

Why can't I blow it off.

Why can't I be normal.

I promised.

I gave up.

I needed release

I walked over

And opened a box.

I promised.

I pulled out a blade.

Shiny and new.

I admired the blade.

I pushed up my pant leg.

I promised.

I tried to ignore the voice

I had promised

But he would understand

Wouldn't he?

I promised!

The voice screamed.

I tried to fight it.

I did promise.

And I don't lie.

I promised!

I threw the blade

Hard on the ground.

I took my notebook

And wrote this.

I kept my promise.

Now I feel better.

Because not only

Did I write a new poem

I kept my promise.

I kept my promise.