Can We Go Back?

blast from the past

Sollux POV

I remember it like it was yesterday.

I haven't thought of it in forever.

I first time I met the REAL Eridan Ampora........

~back in highschool, junior year~

I was sitting at a table at lunch. Practically empty, aside from the annoying friends I have, Karkat and Terezi. I'm not sure if they are dating or not.....

I don't eat lunch, I rarely eat. All I have to eat today is some Doritos and a coffee. I take a sip of my coffee as I type restlessly on the keyboard of my laptop.

Most days I ignore their conversations. But Terezi and Karkat where having some random conversation about something just as random. But I heard them say my name a few times. when I looked up from the screen in front of me, I see Eridan Ampora sitting at the table behind Terezi and Karkat, all alone. I feel bad. I like him, but I don't know how to act around him let alone tell him. I always act like a total dick. Wait. That's how I act around everyone.

Guess I am a little bit more of a dick to him than two anyone else....

I glance at my friends, tz cackles and kk's face is red in anger. Maybe she said something that pissed him off. Losing interest in what was going on between those two, I close my laptop and stand up.

"WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU GOING?" kk asks, noticing me leaving

"None of you damn busiine22." I retort back "ju2t, need to talk to someone..." I hold my laptop under my arm and leave before anyone else can talk to me.

My destination? Eridan's table. I decided it is time for me to be- nicer. And maybe try to find a way to apologize to him for years of name calling and ignoring his exsistance. Time to turn over a near leaf-

I stop in my tracks to only find my ex girlfriend, Feferi. That would be awkward- apologizing to him in front of her. Then I begin to think. Didn't she tell me how much she hated Eridan when I was dating her?

A feeling fills up inside of me. Envy? No, what is there to be envious of? I brush it off and walk away. My timing was perfect for the bell just rang.

Mid 5th hour. I get bored of sitting through some old lady talk about Lewis and Clark making deals and not even getting laid by the one girl there. Wait- she is married. Nevermind. Anyways, I ask the teacher to use the bathroom. She agrees with disappointment.

She obviously knows that I leave this class everyday to go to the bathroom and just sit there using my phone for about 15 minutes.

I waste no time to leave the class to go to the bathroom. I begin to take out my phone while I walk through the doorway. I didn't make it far when My body hits someone who was leaving.

I ignore the fact that my phone fell out of my hand, making a loud sound against the tile. When I look up, I come face to face with Eridan Ampora. He is taller than me. Not by much, but due to my lacking posture he looks like he is much taller compared to me. His hair gracefully falls out of its slicked back look ever so slowly and the purple streak matches his bright eyes that are currently puffy. Was he- crying?

"Sorry sol..." He says, his voice shaking. "I didn't mean to make you drop your phone. I wwill leavve you be now. " he drops his head and begins to walk off.

I don't know why (even years later, I can't begin to understand why), but I grab his wrist. He tenses up.

"Hey, Ed, ii wanted two talk two you earliier but you where talkiing to FF." I sigh "can we talk?"

"I really should be going sol- I don't wwant to be a bother"

I notice that today, for whatever reason, he seems different. He normally is trying to hurt pride and fails but today he is giving in. I choose my next works carefully "are you okay?" I still hold onto the sleeve of his Purple hoodie by the wrist.

He doesn't answer right away. But he doesn't need to.

I saw why he was in such a rush. I pull him into the bathroom. He was expecting me to beat the shit out of him. I don't blame him. It was common for me to pin him against the bathroom wall and give him a black eye and a bloody nose. But that was then, this is now.

I pull up his sleeve and find the cause of the red stains on the fabric. His arm was coated in deep cuts. Some old and fading, others fresh and still releasing the liquid no matter how hard he tried to clean it up.

"The fuck ii2 wrong Ed? Why?"

"Sol, don't take this the wwrong wway. I havve feelins and you havve nevver seemed to consider that. I don't have an easy life despite how much money everyone says my family has. I havve to deal wwith people hating me 24/7 and you nevver cared before how I felt and I havve no clue wwhy you care now. So please. Nevver talk to me again." With that, he pulled his sleeve down and left. Tears filled up his frame covered eyes as he left.

I felt a stab at my heart.

~current time, New York City~

I walk down the bustling streets. My laptop case in my hands as I carry luggage out of the airport. I have moved several times because of work. After college, I worked at a small buisness in Texas, staying with KK and his "roommate" dave. I walked in on them so many times so I got an internship and later a job at Google in California. Now I am moving to new york to work for mongoDB.

I still have to find somewhere to stay, but for now I plan to stay at a motel until I can find a loctation to move to.

I wait outside for a taxi. When it arrives I put my luggage in the trunk and tell the driver to take me to a motel close to my new office. The drive is quiet and I take out my laptop and type at 76wpm. Instead of taking me to my original location, I ask the driver to drop me off at the cafe I see. I feel the need for a coffee and something to eat.

I take my bags with me, placing the laptop back in the case.

I go to open the glass door to the cafe but stop when I see the purple eyes behind black glasses staring back at me like they did in the bathroom entrance all those years ago.

"Eridan...?"

Hey Everyone! This is a story I plan to take my time writing to make sure it amazing. This has been an idea I have had for a while and I just gained the inspiration to write it.

There is a lot to look forward to like

Heartbreak

Traumatizing backstory

Rebuilding

And gay

Lots and lots of gay.

I hope you will enjoy reading everything else as much as I will enjoy writing it!

See you all around my dudes

OwO

~fruitcake/Tez