Sollux POV
~few years ago~
I sit on the couch. My computer on with several coding programs running at the same time.
Typing away at the keyboard at top speed, I notice KK walk in from the bedroom.
He is wearing strider's shirt. No wonder he didn't come from his own room. I snicker to myself because this isn't the first time this has happened.
It makes it even more hallarious that they swear to not have any sort of relationship going on between them.
"Morniing kk. Rough niight?" I smirk, earning myself a glare.
"SHUT THE FUCK UP" dispite him being recently woken, his tone is still as angry as usual.
"I thiink you diid enough fuckiing"
He blushed and next thing I know, a pillow from the other couch is thrown at me.
That is why they are called "throw pillows".
I feel a small prick in my heart. I know what this is. It is jealousy mixed with longing.
I feel this every time I witness a moment in my roommates' relationship.
I wish I could have what they have. If only back in highschool I could of have this with Eridan-
No.
My mind flashes back to those years back . him telling me to never talk to him again echoes in my mind.
If only i could see hin again to apologize for everything and tell him those feelings that never faded.
~current time~
When I asked Eridan on this "date" (it is a date for me but just a friendly lunch to catch up on for him), I didn't think that he would ever agree. But here we are, in a silence.
I decided to speak. But what do I say?
Fuck it.
"Remember last tiime we talked, year2 ago? Iin the bathroom? Well ii just really wanted to tell you back then-"
He cuts me off. "sol, please don't continue. I tried vvery hard to bury that time in my life. "
What was so bad in his life that he wont even talk about it? "But-" I begin. But the possibilities of that sentence linger in the air.
"evven thinking about it brings back the feelings I had towwards evverything. That includes myself. So please, don't talk about that at all."
I sigh. I don't want to be a dick to him anymore "Okay, ii won't."
The waitress returns with my Dr. Pepper and his sweat tea. Eridan thanks her before she takes our order.
Eridan goes first and orders a simple cheese pizza. On the other hand, I get my usual mix of combo with ham and pinapple.
She walks away to get us our food and I speak again.
"You know Ed, ii am hone2tly glad that ii met up with you after the move. Ii need a friiend here to teach me around the city." I smile as kindly as possible. And I mean it. Im glad that we can finally be friends.
He just nods ever so slightly at me. Does he not see us as friends?
I am just surprised that I am able to talk to him this causally. Altough we haven't seen eachother in years, the feelings I have for him never faded. Back when I lived with kk and strider I always wished that I could have what those two have with someone I truly love. Oddly, Eridan was the only person I could think of when I had that feeling.
Am I blushing? FUCKING BRAIN! I think I am blushing...
The waitress returns with our food.
"Do you maybe want two hang out more often? ii thiink iit would bee fun."
"Wwell, i wwork a lot so..." He stops. I don't think he really wants to hang out with me. Not now. Not ever.
"That2 fiine. Work come2 fiir2t. But ii wiill alway2 bee free to hang out whenever"
"Thanks. Wwell i got to go. It wwas nice talking to you." He forces a smile and stands up, leaving some money next to his barely eaten slice of pizza.
When he is gone, I lay my head on the table.
Where did I go wrong?
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Can We Go Back?
FanfictionSollux is a coder who moves company to company Eridan is a successful buisness owner who built his job up from the ground Sollux moves and runs into the person who he has made suffer in highschool without even realizing it. They decide to give their...
