Can We Go Back?

meet me unexpectedly

Eridan's POV

Sollux fucking Captor. Of all the people from my past, HE had to be the one I run into randomly.

I feel myself bite my lip as I stare into his bicoloured eyes, peeking through his red and blue lenses. If only those eyes saw himself the way I have always seen him...

~back in highschool, junior year~

I sit alone, as I always do. The sounds of loud chatter fill the cafeteria as I stare at my plate of mimimal food.

I delicately eat a grape, watching to make sure I don't over eat.

I look up and make eye contact with a computer obsessed guy who has practically anyone at his disposal.

Not me though. Never me. I have known him for years and he never notices me. Well... Not never. When he does, it doesn't end well.

I finally advert my eyes back to my petite meal. When I glance up, I find him no longer sitting with Kar and Ter. Where could he have gone?

At this moment, I find fef taking the empty seat in front of me.

Odd, she stopped talking to me after she learned about my depression. That was when she decided she can't be my best friend because I was "too needy" and "too much maintenance". She decided to date Sollux after that, the other person who thinks my exsistance is a complete and utter joke.

")(ey -Eridan. You doing alrig)(t?" She asks, seeming like she genuinely cares. She wants something.

"I'm doin fin." I deliberately use a fish pun to piss her off. She told me I can't make them after we stopped being friends. "Wwhat do you wwant?"

"Well.... You sea... I just need you to do me a small favor." She says in the the sweetest manner possible. The tone of her voice could make anyone fall victim to the siren.

"Wwhat kind of 'small favvor'?"

"I need you to stop being a little depressed clown fis)( and pretend to be my boyfriend."

She can't be serious. "No"

"W)(at?" She seems baffled at my refusal.

"I said no fef. There wwas a time i wwould do that to make your ex jealous but that wwas before you decided to break my heart and leavve me wwith no one to turn to. So, no." I release I breath I didnt know i was holding "bye."

She takes a hint and walks away as the bell rings. She is pissed and not even trying to hide it.

I gather my things and throw away the remainder of my food before I head to algebra 2.

Im in class when my brother texts me. The vibration temps me, and so I look down at my phone, hidden away in my lap.

Just letting your ass knowv that dad is home early. Good luck

I feel my emotions finally catch up from ealier than the thoughts of dad being home...

The perfect que for my depression to be overwelming. I raise my hand and request to go to the bathroom.

I waste no time when he says I can.

I stand at the bathroom sink, pressing the cold blade I removed from a pencil sharpener to my wrist. Little red beads expose themselves while I drag the blade across my wrist.

When the old scares are replaced with fresh cuts, I wipe the tears from my eyes and clean the blood up with paper towel. It doesn't stop bleeding. "Screww it..." I mumble, pulling my sleeve over my arm to hide the marks.

I fix my glasses and walk out of the bathroom, well I almost walk out of the bathroom. Instead, I run into Sollux. Literally. His dark brown hair is messy and he wears a yellow hoodie with a plain black tee. I see his phone fall out of his hands and land on the floor.

"Sorry sol..." I my voice shaking. "I didn't mean to make you drop your phone. I wwill leavve you be now. " I drops my head and begin to walk off.

He grabs my wrist. I tense up. Of all the people, I don't want him to know

"Hey, Ed, ii wanted two talk two you earliier but you where talkiing to FF." He sighs "can we talk?"

I don't have time for this. "I really should be going sol- I don't wwant to be a bother"

He speaks softly, like he cares "are you okay?" He won't let go of my wrist and a red stain is forming on the fabric.

I don't answer him.

He pulls me back into the bathroom. I was expecting him to kick my ass. Like he has on multiple past occasions. He is a monster

Instead, he pulls up my sleeve and finds the cuts, blood stole oozing from them

"The fuck ii2 wrong Ed? Why?"

It is time I am honest. "Sol, don't take this the wwrong wway. I havve feelins and you havve nevver seemed to consider that. I don't have an easy life despite how much money everyone says my family has. I havve to deal wwith people hating me 24/7 and you nevver cared before how I felt and I havve no clue wwhy you care now. So please. Nevver talk to me again." I pull my sleeve down and leave the bathroom, those damb tears are back. But at least he leaves me alone for as long as I can remember.

~current time~

"Hey sol..." I stare at him with the same expression I had back in the bathroom during year. I feel my hand shaking with my latte in hand. I regret coming here to get this coffee and a muffin. Damn habits. "Wwhat are you doing here?"

"II was ju2t goiing to get 2omethiing to eat. Ii ju2t moved here for work."

"Oh wwell good luck" I walk away, walking past him.

"Hey, do you want to catch up 2ometiime?" He asks. I stop in my tracks.

Worth a shot "sure..."

He gives me his number, and we part our ways.

Well shit... Now I have to spend time with the person who made me want to die every single fucking day.