Unknown Destination

chapter 5

Bae is you alright ?!
I got a text from bae while making my way to bed to get some rest.
I guess it was exhaustion from today that cause me to throw up but, how come I puked maybe was it the food ,man I don't know. I thought to myself . I decided to take a hot shower and went to take a nap , I texted Kalil making sure he doesn't worry and that it was from me being exhausted ,and told him I will be taking a nap he agreed and I went straight to sleep....

Three hours later..

I woke up feeling relieved from the situation but still felt dizzy. I checked my phone to see what time it was
5:00
Man that was a great nap. I really couldn't understand what was wrong with me to be honest so I hit Shayla up
Lucky she answers
"Tell me how I puke today " I told as I was going downstairs to the kitchen to catch something to eat or at least cook before my mom come ... Yes I cook what ya thought I'm lazy ass gurl who don't do shit , well ya thought wrong
"What you mean you puked, is you sick or something , cause when I saw you, you seemed fine to me "
"It was with Kalil cause he had to buy himself a suit , and all the sudden we was eating something after we got his suit he bought me food then next minute we was arguing like usual (hahaha) and next minute I tried to get out the car I ended throwing up , man I don't know why though I think its the food I had "
"When this started?"
I heard Shayla asked while I was putting out all the ingredients in order for me to cook Onions tomatoes green peppers ........
"I guess this morn----", then I remembered when I was swallowing my puke yesterday in front of my mom house the minute I came back from Kalil house
"The day I came back from Kalil house yesterday. "
I heard the longest pause from Shayla.
I was mixing all the ingredients together when she started speaking.
Nilah, what did you do when you came back from Kalil's house ?"
"Well we talked argued and made up.....wait why you asking"
So ya didn't do anything but argue and made up"
"Ok ok so we didn't just made up , what this about anyways?"
"I think we both know what this is about."
Can this girl be specific,then it washed through my head like a wave , is she talking about what I think she talking about, I ran to the living room where the calendar was, I checked through my phone while Shayla was on the line I heard her talking but I was too focused to answer, I checked my monthly dates, I counted down, no way. That's when I frozed and dropped down on the couch . The dizziness the puke the stress the emotional wrecks. It a came to my mind , finally becoming all clear. I got up feeling more dizzy turn off the stove set everything on the table knowing my mom will be here in minutes I turn off the phone telling Shayla I will call her back and covered the food when I got done I went up the stairs...................................

I woke up to lights and a white room full of medical appliances . I noticed my mom sitting on a chair next to me she immediately got up when she noticed I was waking up.
"How long was I asleep" I asked her , she got closer to me.
"You must have fainted when I got home I saw you on the floor near the stairs, passed out", she said with so much concerned in her voice.
That's when the doctor came in , it was young make with blacked slicked hair he must have been I don't know Italian based on his accent . He was holding a clipboard full of paperwork I'm sure it was my medical record. He then looked at me and then at my mom.
"You must be the mother, your daughter is fine these things happen often when a women is not getting enough rest therefore I believe she should take more cautious to what happening around it might affect the baby.
Baby?!
"My daughter,.. pregnant" my mom asked as she gazed at me with a confused look"
"What you you mean doctor"I asked .
Well your test results stated your pregnant ma'am therefore you must take cautious and not give yourself a hard time." The doctor answered
" I understand this is a family matter so I will get back with you guys with the medication that you were prescribed to take"
I sat straight cause my back was hurting so bad gosh I hate hospitals.
"Momma?"
She was quiet.

She was quiet ever since we came home she was quiet for the past week not one utter of words nothing . I swear I hate myself for this
I can't put my mom in this position I just can't she didn't deserve this .
I ran upstairs and took my clothes and put them in a suitcase went downstairs and was close to leave out the door
"Where you think your going?"
"You don't deserve a daughter like me I'm ruthless mom I can't be a burden to you no more I just can't, I know I'm a disgrace I'm selfish , ugh I can imagine what you could be thinking right now , how could I be so foolish to put myself in this state just how, now what will become of me , a mother at this age I'm only 19 I can't be a mother now I have goals. I'm ruined, I would always look at young women at our school and just think how could anyone do that to themselves , but now look at me who am I to judge" I began sobbing and fell down to the floor with tears all over me
She must have hesitated but finally came and hugged me and wiped my tears" look your momma loves you no matter what, your my daughter and im not gonna sit here and let you ruined your life like this , now where will you go huh just what will you eat where would you sleep , honey your my daughter and you know that I love you. And I won't let you do this by yourself okay mommy here . She hugged me more.
"Don't you hate me mommy you expected so much of me now look at me " I sobbed in her chest
"No who told you that " she moved my face to look at her.
"Baby I love you now shutup and stop acting dramatic I know this something big but, runaway is even worse , now how you just gonna leave your momma alone huh". She wipes my tears and had me stand up
Go take a shower we gonna deal with this you need some food in your body".