Fam(ily) doesn't last forever...

Chapter 1

I grew up in a broken family. It was me, my brother (Luke) my dad (Robert) and my mom (Amy) we weren't a perfect family. Mom had a husband, dad had a girlfriend and me and bub lived with mamaw. Dad got full custody of me and my brother when I was 6 and my brother was 10, we had rights to see our mom every other weekend. But trust me we didn't want to but we had to. Everything went good for a couple months and then moms husband (brad) slowly started to become abusive no one knew besides mom...but mom was to hooked on drugs to do anything cause brad paid all the bill...I was always afraid to go over there because of brad. I remember asking mamaw if I could just stay home that weekend but she said "baby it's your moms weekend to have you" at that point mamaw knew what was happening but she couldn't do anything because she had no proof. Me and bub came home one day and we had bruises all down our back and legs. Mamaw asked what happened I was to scared to speak up so Luke told her that brad came in the room at 3am and beat us with chains and stuffed pepper up our nose...the only thing I could do was cry mamaw said that it would stop.. but we had to continue going to moms. The next weekend we went to moms, mom had a "business" trip I knew it was a lie she didn't work... but we had to stay there with brad. We had fallen asleep and I woke up having to pee so I got up, I came back to go to bed and brad walked in there and said "do you want me to lay with you until you fall asleep" I was afraid to say no so I said yes. He turned on a lullaby and I didn't know why... I turned toward the wall and he slowly started to bring his around to my privates, I was scared at this point bubby was sound asleep, brad put his pants in my underwear and told me everything would be okay... I remember feeling pain and wondering why he was doing this to me he stopped about 12 minuets later and I was in tears, I wanted to beg for help but I couldn't brad whispered in my ear and said "if you tell anyone I promise it won't be good" so I knew I had to be silent at this point, I just didn't know bubby was awake the entire time he was just being quiet he rolled over and hugged me and said "sissy everything will be okay" I said bubby "you can't tell anyone or he will do bad things to us" bub agreed that we wouldn't tell until we knew we didn't have to come back here.

We went home and I complained that my privates was hurting and mamaw asked me why and I didn't know what to say so I said I don't know I think I have a peeing problem, she took me to the doctor the next day and they had seen where I was torn they asked me what happened and I was silent I didn't say anything besides I did the splits... I knew that wasn't gonna work they ended up doing a bunch of test on me and I didn't know anything that was being said we left the doctors and mamaw was in tears I asked what was wrong and she said "I promise everything will be okay" we needed up not going to moms for a while and we started going to court and therapy. I remember being asked if I was raped and I would say no... but I really wanted to tell the truth, I was just scared mom would always call and ask me if I was okay and I said I guess she said "mommy loves you and I promise everything will be okay" I knew she was lying she let him do it to me she let him abuse me and my brother and she didn't do anything because of the drugs...