Mabilis kumalat ang balita. The next day, alam na halos ng buong school na kami na. At first, we were too shy to admit it, pero sa sobrang kakulitan ng mga friends namin, wala na kaming ibang nagawa kundi umamin.
Graduation na.
Still going strong pa rin kami. You’d think we’ve gotten serious. Ewan ko lang. There are times na serious, may times na hindi. Pero I was secretly hoping na we still are. On the day of our graduation, our families celebrated together. Oh diba?! Legal kami! Hehehe….
College na kami.
Unfortunately, magkaiba kami ng schools. And that’s when things started to get complicated and hard to handle between us. To the point na we had that talk. Alam mo yun? Yung THE TALK. It happened on our 2nd anniversary. While having dinner, bigla siya nagsalita.
“Baby, can we talk. You know. About us?!” he asked.
“Sure. Bakit?! Is there something wrong?” I asked him back.
“Di ba sabi natin dati na pag hindi na tayo nag workout, we can set each other free na?” sabi niya.
Uh-oh!! Ano to?!?! Oh no! This is not happening!!!
“Kasi nahihirapan na ko. I don’t think it’s still working out for me.” He continued.
Ayos ka din no!!! Hahanap ka lang ng timing para makipag break, anniversary pa natin!!! Wala ka sa ayos pare!!! !@#$ ka!!! Anong gusto mo sabihin ko?!?! Nahihirapan ka?! Tingin mo sakin?! All these years, nagpapakasaya lang?!?! Ayos ka din no!!! Kung alam mo lang mga pinagdaanan ko para lang sayo!!! !@#$!!!
“Okay. If that’s what you want.” Sabi ko. Nag pakamartyr na naman ako!!!
“One question lang… is there another girl?!” tanong ko sa kanya. I nervously waited for his answer.
He looked in my eyes. Then slowly nodded.
“Meron. Classmate ko sa physics. I'm so sorry.” Sabi niya.
Sorry?!?! Anong sorry?!?! Makakain ko ba yang sorry na yan?!?! Mababalik ba niyan yung dati?!?! Sagutin mo nga ako?!?!? Ano?! Langya! Bigla bumagsak mundo ko nun. I felt like dying. I wanted to cry at mag eskandalo dun pero I can’t. Ginusto ko to eh. Paninindigan ko katangahan ko.
With my hands trembling, I slowly reached for my purse. Kinuha ko ung gift ko for him. I was so stupid to think and hope in our 2 years span of a relationship, he had already learned to love me more than his best friend. In a blink of an eye, all my hopes are gone. Binigay ko sa kanya ung gift.
Ayaw pa nga niya tanggapin nung una eh. But I insisted. So he gave in and accepted it. It was a bracelet with our names enscribed on it. At the back it says, “PARE forever!” I guess “pare” is all we could ever be to each other.
After that, he tried to lighten up the mood by cracking up some jokes and playing around. Syempre, as my best friend, he knows how to make me laugh. Kahit anong lakas ng tawa ko sa mga jokes at kwento niya, grabe naman ang iyak ng puso ko. Pungal yan! I never thought I’d be this corny! Pero it’s true. My heart was aching and crying inside. I just tried hiding it all from him with a happy disguise.
Hinatid niya ko sa bahay. The usual goodbyes. Tapos he kissed me on the cheeks. Hindi na lang ako nagreact. Nakasanayan na kasi eh. When I got out of his car, I told myself ‘I’m not going to cry’. But when I got to my room, tears just started to fall from my eyes. I can’t help it. Lalo na when I saw our picture sa bedside table ko. Tumuloy-tuloy na yung flow ng tears. To take my mind off him, binuksan ko yung t.v. para malibang kahit paano. Talaga nga naman! Sakto sa MTV ni Mariah Carey na breakdown! Bwisit! Tamang-tama sakin yun! As in!
