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             Dear Erin,                       15.12.14

I found your notes, all of them seem to have a message attached. I found them scattered across my room, hidden in various places. The only way I found them was because I was moving everything out of my room. Dad got a job transfer to California, so mum and I have a month to pack up our things. I am quite sad about moving. I am also sad at the chance I may never see you again. I promise to keep writing, I might even send these letters to you, but that is if I find your where bouts.

I am reading the small pieces of papers now, that you have left for me, I don't quite understand what you are saying but I have a feeling it was something you had been planning for a while now. There is seven pieces of paper, they read;

'There is no such place as far away'

'I know that there is a place for me somewhere out there'

'Sometimes goodbye is the only way'

'I will not let this control me anymore'

'Because I know what it feels like to beg god to just take it all away'

'The cold realization that I'm still here slowly begins to set in'

'She was drowning but nobody saw her struggle'

My mind may be different, but by any chance is this related to depression? Because I don't think I would cope know you've done something stup-