You know that time when you are just confused with yourself
Then you're confused on what you feel.
I feel like I'm like that right now
I'm in a bad mood
I don't know what's the reason or whatsoever.
My mom raised her voice on me.
And ask what's my problem?
I feel scared and confused.
Scared that she'll be mad at me for being like this.
I don't know what's the problem with me.
I'm just like this for some reason.
If I told my mom that I don't know what's wrong with me.
Then she'll ask "what do you mean there's nothing wrong!?"
Then she'll raise her voice again.
Then I'll feel weak.
Then I'll cry
Then she will call me Maarte (Weak or something like that)
Then I'll get judge again.
They easily hurt and judge me.
I can't be happy all the times
Why am I like this?
Why do I get mood swings a lot?..
Why am I in a bad mood sometimes.
With no reasons.
January 13, 2018
I don't know what's wrong with me.
I don't know if I'm bipolar.
I think I am.
But I am not.
