Finding Her

IV

Deep breathes.
In and out. In and out.
Everything is going to be fine.
It's just........school. New school!

I open my eyes when I feel the car stop. I take one last deep breathe and my mom speaks up.

"Ready?" She asks, with a sweet smile on her face which doesn't let me say that I'm a wreck right now.

New schools were not a problem for me, but here, because of my little incident in the supermarket, it is turning out to be a problem.

But I don't say that, "Yeah, I'm ready. I'm in my uniform, shirt ironed, skirt polished and below my knees, shoes polished, and hair properly done, so yeah, I guess I am ready."

My mom glares at me and I laugh.

"You really got to work on your jokes,"

"And you really should leave for work," I say and she chuckles.

"Yes, I know," She keeps a hand on my shoulder and looks at me, "Be good, and happy. I'm proud of you."

I just smile.

"I'll see you after work,"

"Okay, bye." I say and step out of the car.

Goosebumps arise in my body as the chilly air of morning hits my body. Alright who am I kidding? Myself? I'm scared to be here!!

When my eyes land on the big brick building of Delhi Public School, my lungs stop functioning. I have not had a good start here in Dehradun, and I'm hoping that the start of my school will be peaceful and easy.

I'll go to my new class, I'll find an empty seat and sit there while people will come up to me to talk to me. I'll make a few friends and the lectures will all go smoothly.

This is what I'm wishing.
But, as rightly said, the world is not a wish granting factory.
And my world, has never granted me any wish.

I shut the door of the car and wave a bye to my mom, and she drives away.

This moment is when I can sing the bridge of 'Carnival Rust' to my mom and stop her! But no, I can't do that.

Sorry, Poets of the Fall.

It has started to fill up here, students have started to come as it's only fifteen minutes now that the bell will ring. I start walking to the entrance and I feel some of the people watching me, rather eyeing me.

I sigh and walk faster. I walk to the reception and they tell me to go to the second floor of the second building. I thank them and keep walking. First I get lost in this big fat building and it was hard to tell which the second building was.

I asked a girl about it and she told me. I made it to my class ten minutes early.
Good.

When I enter the class, I don't think it is hard to imagine what happened. All eyes turned to me, and everyone start to talk among themselves, murmurs all around.

I bite my lip and look around to find an empty seat to sit, and surprisingly, there's one bench which is completely empty, no student on it.

So I walk to it and keep my bag on the other side, hoping that no one will come there.

First days of school are always awkward, or maybe second days also. Alright, let's keep it a week.

People talk to you on the first day, and judge you, and that decides if they are ever going to talk to you. If they do, then well and good, but if they don't, it can take you a while to find a set of friends for yourself.