HEY YOU GUYS SORRY I HAVE NOT UPDATED SINCE THE START OF 2018 IM SO SORRY IVE BEEN BUSY THESE PAST FEW DAYS
ANYWAYS
I HAVE SOMETHING TO SHARE TO YOU
HOPE YOU TAKE TIME AND UNDERSTAND MY CURRENT SITUATION
OKAY HERE IT IS
it's january 30 and im doing good. not that great. i have some problems. i have a problem with socializing with people and have a few ones with trusting people.
i feel like i am alone, even if i am not. i want my closest friends to tell me stuff that they think i should stop doing, or improve a little bit but no. they dont tell me. thats why i caught them stabbing me in the back (its a metaphor, not literally stabbing me with a pointy thing). it hurts, friend. i had numerous experiences with betrayal and i am gonna tell you, its not great.
me in this situation, you think im happy and contented and complete. but no. i am a worthless piece of s*** that my parents provide for and "pabigat" or "abala" to them.
and do you guys have siblings, older than or younger than you? if you have then you are lucky. i dont have one, so mostly i keep my problems to myself. even when my clasamates before told me to "become open" or be open to my parents still i dont. why though? because for me, they dont and will not understand me, for some reason.
and, yeah. Thats it. i dont have much to say anymore. talking about this makes me feel gloomy. yeah.
again i am very sorry if i dont update a lot. life pretty much got into the way. maybe my next update will be on february. sorry and please know i love you guys.
be kind and love yourselves, beautiful nuggets
sorry just craving for one right now
again be kind to yourselves.
love u
-cloud :>
