It's over.
It really is over.
No more memories or dreams.
Nothing to hold onto.
Or wish to let go.
No going back
Or trying to push forward.
No happy ending for us...
But no doubt that we would never leave each other.
Fate had drawn the line.
Our souls left the second the match fell
The second we gave our last goodbyes.
The second Erik knew from the smoke and coughs from our room
He knew we would be gone.
He went too.
It's ok though,
We're all together now.
Phil met Adrien
Adrien forgave me
For not being there
And not trying
For giving up
And giving in
Mom wouldn't let go
Loosing your child
Even if they're still alive,
That had to hurt more than dying herself.
Dad cried
I had never seen him cry before
But I knew why
It was his apology for everything
But it wasn't his place to apologize
It was mine.
And in that moment
We all apologized for what we did
Even if all they did was cry out that night
Even if they brought me home
Even if they brought us to our Home.
Thank you Adrien Howell
For giving me someone to hold and console
Even if for a moment
A moment that I would give anything to get back
Thank you Mom
For not letting me go even after I was lost
For not loosing yourself
Or leaving your other child
Thank you Dad
For showing that you can be weak
And also stronger than any soldier
Thank you Jason
For being a dick
But also the father I never had
And someone to push me
Even if it was as twisted as you did
And even if it left you to die
Thank you Erik
For getting us out
And waiting every day with Phil for those two weeks
Thank you Phil Lester
For never giving up
But for giving in
When you needed to.
For staying by my side
Even when I couldn't be with you.
For loving me when I couldn't love myself.
This is my Apology to you
And to myself,
To who I can't forgive
Or to who I can't forget.
Dan Howell will be a part of each of your lives
And will stay there even after the end.
Needless to say
This was
The worst I've ever felt
But also
The most fun
I've ever had
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Five Nights At Howell's
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