Therapy • e.d

The tree

I felt like me and Ethan made a connection. Mostly likely because we both had a dead family member. And because the both committed suicide.

We sat in the car driving through the quiet town. Night life was my favourite. A town once so quiet was no silent. All you could hear was the hum of the engine and the indicator ticking.

The green light turned to red making us stop. I looked out the window taking in this special moment. I hear Ethan mumble something and I turn to him. He was staring at me in awe. He was so cute.

"Take a picture it lasts longer." I say quietly.
"Maybe I should." He pulled out his phone and quickly took a picture of me smiling. I normally don't like having picture taken but with Ethan I felt ok with it.

To busy giggling and talking, we hadn't realised the red light had now turned green. The silence was broken by a truck loudly honking his horn behind us.

"Whoops." Ethan laughed. His laugh was one of my favourite things about him. It was quite intense. It was one of those laughs that when you hear it, it makes you laugh.

He put the car into neutral and drove in the opposite direction of my house. He was driving to the woods, bearing in mind it was 9:00.
"Ethan why are we going to the woods?"
"You'll see." He spoke.

•15 mins later

After a 15 minute car ride filled with laughter, we had arrived at our destination. Ethan got out first and came round to open my door for me. What a gentleman.

"Here you go my lady." He spoke in a terrible British accent.
"Thank you sir." I spoke with my British/American accent.

"So why are we here E?"
"Well you told me your story so I'm going to tell you mine."He Said whilst walking up to a large tree.

"Here," He pointed up to a steady looking branch. "Here is where it all happened."
What was he going on about?
"On the 5 September last year, my brother hung himself here."
"Ethan you don't have to tell me."
"Kirsten I want to. You told me your mothers so I'm going to tell my brothers,"

PLAY SONG

"We had a YouTube channel 'the Dolan twins' we had around 3 million subscribers. We were happy and famous. We were used to getting hate and nasty messages but Grayson always took them to heart. I would tell him 'Gray it's just people who have nothing better to do' he would smile and say thanks bro. We got bullied at school so it would bring back memories. One day we got told our dad was diagnosed with cancer, so we took a few weeks of off social media and YouTube. After about 3 weeks, we made a video explaining why we were off YouTube. When we uploaded it, we started to get comments saying they were glad our dad was dying and they wish we died too. On the day gray died, I knew something was up. He kept telling me he loved me and he would always be there. At around 4:30, I asked mom where he was but she didn't know. I went out to search the woods, his favourite place to think. And I found him here swinging in rhythm with the wind. I screamed and cried wanting to get him down. But I couldn't He was gone. I ran home telling my family barely able to get my words out. We went and cut him down. The ambulances came and confirmed it all. Every since then I feel like I have a whole in my heart. Like my half of me is gone. But today I felt different hanging out with you has made me happy for once. I want to say thanks." He spoke through tears.

I went up to him hugging him and wiping his tears away.
"Oh Ethan." I Said crying. He hugged me so tight I thought I was going to suffocate.