Staring at my screen with apathy, I take one last look at the memoir before hitting the send button. I close my mac book pro, pushing it to the other side of the bed, feeling relieved that Mr Hawk let me take the day off and considering the fact that it's Friday, I have the weekend to myself as well.
The sound of the rain pattering against the windows and the clap of thunder booms across the sky violently mirroring the thoughts in my mind. I pull my sheets up, letting the soft and warm touch of my bed pull me into its embrace. Closing my eyes for a moment i let out a long sigh as I feel the hot tears running down my cheeks.
It's been so long since I had a breakdown like this. I felt it coming though, from all the constant feeling of mental exhaustion and mood swings I experienced the last two weeks, it was certain.
My body shakes hysterically as the tears continue running down my cheeks, feeling so drained, I say silent prayers to God. Asking him to heal me, to make me let go of all the hurt from losing my parents and struggling emotionally all these years. I cry and cry hoping to feel better immediately.
Imagine having most of the things you've always wanted as a little girl and still feeling like something's missing or you're still not there yet. I think about my mom's warm smile every time she sees me or my dad's approving looks. I remember how I got the gut-wrenching call from the hospital, how fast my heart was beating as I answered the call with a trembling voice and how I felt like my bones had turned to jelly when I approached the hospital.
As if on cue my phone rings, I feel a wave of deja Vu. I swipe to answer already feeling uneasy in my stomach.
Keith
"Hey" I say my voice hoarse
"Princess, you don't sound okay, what's wrong?" He asks
"I don't know I just feel some type of way, I feel so drained, tired and upset" I say and I cry
"Aw my princess, it's okay to feel this way you know, it's okay to cry when you've bottled up your emotions for too long. You'll be fine my love, I'll be there in a few" He says and my heart warms
"Alright" I say before resting my head on my pillows. I decide to close my eyes for a while and sooner than later i start to fall asleep. I feel my nerves relax as they let loose of all the tension.
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"She was asleep when I got in"
"Yeah? I'll just give her her food, I got some for you as well" I hear hushed voices and i groggily open my eyes
"Oh I think she's awake now" I hear Lily say
"Lily you're back" I say trying to adjust my vision to the light
"Yeah, I came in an hour ago but you were asleep so I didn't want to wake you up" She walks up to me and i engulf her in a hug
"What's wrong? Why are you so mushy today?" She teases
"What I can't hug my sister anymore?" I say and she laughs
"Alright, I have to do my homework plus your Prince Charming is here to see you" she smirks at me before walking out and I spot Keith's leaning against the wall watching me mischievously with a smile.
"You sound better now" He walks to the bed sitting beside me
"I guess" I say and he pulls me to him and i hug him
"I'm sorry i just feel so tired, on one hand I miss my parents and on the other hand I feel like I'm still not where I want to be, even though I push myself so hard" My voice breaks as I explain to him feeling my tears build up again
"Don't cry my love, it's okay to feel like that sometimes, heck I feel that way sometimes too, but then you're not where you were before and I'm sure you know that, you're so smart and hardworking, and I'm sure your parents would be so proud of the woman you've become, look at how far you've come, it's so sad that they can't be here right now but trust me I know they're proud of you" he says before kissing my forehead
"I got some food for you" he takes out the carefully packed Mac n cheese and my favorite fruit drink and I instantly smile
"You're so sweet" i tease
"If I don't take care of my baby, who will? Want me to feed you? Or you got it?" He asks as he sits beside me
I make a puppy dog face in return and he laughs
"Oh so now you'll let me feed you" he blows on the food a bit before placing it in my mouth and I chew quietly suddenly getting shy
As if keith reads my mind he chuckles
"Don't tell me you're shy" I cover my face as I laugh
"You're always so cute" he teases and I smile
I place a kiss on his lips feeling like the luckiest woman in the world.
YOU ARE READING
Being Annalise Johnson
Romance"You can't marry her Keith, she's not from a prestigious or renowned background and it'll ruin our family lineage!" An angry outburst from Keith's Father leaves Annalise startled and flushed in the corridor. Fed up and hurt she walks into the room...
