My Greatest Sorrow | yoonmin ♕

day 7

I'm literally shaking while I was approaching the room where Min yoongi is. I couldn't stop the tears running down both side of my eyes that makes my vision little blur. Then I stopped in the door, I just lean my head and try to be strong and not cry in front of him. I take deep breath and opened the door.

There he is, lying in the bed with all the machine suck the life of him but this time it's the only source of his life. He look pained, and it hurt to see him like this. His eyes were clutching real hard. "H-hyung?".

He slowly open his eyes and when he saw me he smiled a little. "Hey jiminie". He said painfully. I'm really trying hard to not cry. "I'm sorry, I'm really really sorry" he broke in tears. "I'm sorry for being selfish to leave you in this cruel world, I'm sorry to leave you not only lonely but also heartbrok--"

"No hyung, just please fight for me" I looked at him pleading. But I know that he's in pain by looking at him hissing and clutching his eyes.

"I'm sorry Jiminie, but I'll only cause you pain, by staying more here, by not able to pay you or God knows who will pay this hospital bills"

"Please, don't worry about that, I will do everything, just please, fight" Now my eyes are getting teary.

"I love you pabo, but this is reality, and maybe my purpose here is  done" he managed to say.

"No, please don't say that, please, I love you too hyung, I never felt this way before and ever I know my mom will be between us but I'll fight! Just please fight with me" I plead over and over, that I didn't notice that my tears again has burst out. He try to wipe the tears in my cheek but he's too weak.

"I'm sorry, maybe we're just in a wrong world, in the wrong time, q
If I had many tine left, I would spend it all with you" he smiled. "Maybe we could see each other next life" I hate it, i hate everything he's saying. But I have to accept it, this is what fucking life tell me to deal with. And even it hurt so damn much I'll face it, for him.

"You know hyung, when I met you and get to know you, I know that you are precious to me, but now? You're my greatest sorrow" I managed to say with all the sobbing. But he just held my hand tight and manage to put it in him lip and kissed it, he looked at me and give me his gummy smile. And then he's gone. My world is crushing down that I can't pay attention to all the loud machine beeping, and the doctors running, nurses pulling me from him. I can only look at him until they cover him with cloth.