Corners of my heart

4:FALLING BACK TO PLACE

There was a time in my life where I became very sensitive and would always overthink things. That was when I lost my dad in an car accident he was driving home from office late at night almost mid-night his drives didn't see a big bus coming towards them and than crash.
Dad was in the operation room for hours but they couldn't save him due to a lot of blood lost he died.
My mom was effected the most she loved dad even though their marriage was arranged by their parents as their parents where best friends so they wanted their children to continue their relation. She couldn't function for a month she didn't eat nor slept properly but she came to realize that she had to live for me and so she did I don't think she will ever be fine but she is being strong for me and for that I will be forever grateful.
I was very close to my dad, he was my best friend I could tell him anything. He was a piece of my heart and when he passed away it was like a piece of me broke but I knew I had to be strong for her and she figured that out herself that I was there for her, so we just leaned into each other and are surviving.
I don't think I will ever be fully me but these days I am becoming better than before.
Mom is doing great in her work and is having her a fashion show soon for which she is really excited and busy, I love that mom is doing great but I miss her as she is not home most of the time but I am proud her.
Emma is dating no one and is spending more time with me and Nathen so Nathen is in cloud nine. Emma finally figured out that Jason was not her type he was in her words the biggest bookworm and Nathen couldn't be happier.
Practice with Kylie was the highlight of my day, he makes my day so much more brighter. He makes me laugh and angry all at the same time.

It's been a month practicing with Kylie, I don't know what I am feeling but I am always happy and looking forward to see him and talk to him. I grew to love his corny jokes and his happy mood.
The fact that I am talking too much about Kylie is irritating both Emma and Nathen and Nathen is positive there is something happening between us.
I have been spending a lot of time with Kylie, the usual morning practice and drama practice but he would sometimes drop we home after school or stay with me in the library where we got to know a lot about each other.
I found out that he loves baseball and goes for coaching in the summer holidays which became a ritual since 6th grade.
He loves animals and had about 36 pets all through his childhood including a golden fish which was so different for mine as I never owned any pets mom, always said no as they are too much work and her no is a no.He also loves nature and everything related to it and has a lot of nature painting in his room which he brought in the art gallery, another hobby of his.
He is confident, sweet, caring but even though he hates attention, he always becomes the center of attention, you kinda understand why he is the center of attention coming for a family who owns the biggest chain of hotels in the whole world and have all the best features is the right places,everyone passing by had take a second glance.

In one of our conversations recently he mentioned his love for his parents and how he loved the love his parents have between them. He told me they were high school sweethearts who later got married and that he hoped for their kinda love. His sister Elena who was getting married also found her love Zachary in high school and she knew that he was the one but Kylie till date didn't have luck and as it's his last year in high school his parents are teasing him that he would never find his soul mate.

After three weeks of practicing he once told me he was going to watch a Shakespearean drama that night with his parents to boost it his acting capability, the next day he came in showing he what he picked up from the night before and I almost had a severe stomach ache after laughing too much on his horrible acting.

Everyone in the school loves him  too bits everyone was either talking about him or starting about but he was the least bothered.
He carried his confidence proudly in front of everyone but deep down he was always concerned about what they were thinking of talking about,this I knew.

He can always be cool and funny but deep down he is so sentimental and sensitive who makes his so much different then the other boys in the school, he would not think twice to help anyone even the meanest person in school, I once saw him help Miss Daisy to carry textbooks and also help out gym teacher in cleaning up after school, all in all he was some perfect too perfect, he is literally every teachers favorite. Which makes me jealous.
I discovered that he has the softest heart he can literally cry for anything even if it's a movie trailer.

There is only 1week 4 days for Kylie's sisters wedding and tomorrow I am going to his house for practice and will probably be meeting his parents which makes me so nervous.
I was sitting on the kitchen stool sipping my tea and Mrs Mary making me chicken nuggets just than someone entered the house and there was my favorite person in the whole entire world my mom.
"Hello mommy" I said and she gave me one of her bear hugs after which I was tearing a little. She wiped my tears and hugged me again "aww my baby I didn't know that you missed me that much"
"You know I can't live without you, don't ever leave me okey" I didn't realize how much I missed her until now that I have seen her face. She has been really busy with her fashion show that she didn't even come home most of the nights and I went to school early so we never got to properly greet each other.
"I missed you too, you know I have been busy I am so sorry" she said and then we ate chicken nuggets together.

It was 9:30pm in a Saturday night,I took a shower and got into my favorite pajamas. I am still nervous for tomorrow I keep thinking about how tomorrow would turn out and if his parents would like me. I obviously was overthinking too much.

I knocked in my moms room hoping she was not asleep I heard a soft come in.
"Am I disturbing you?" I asked as I peeped in her big room which was made for two but after dad died it was all hers. I saw mom on her bed tucked in with her laptop with we glasses on.
"Come on in,baby" I sat on her bed near her foot with my damp hair all on her comforter. She removed her glass and moved her laptop on the side table and said
"What's will the matter aren't you sleepy?"
"I am very nervous for tomorrow" earlier I told her about tomorrow over chicken nuggets.
"Don't be. The Andrew's are very nice people I have met Mrs Andrew before and she seems to be a gentle woman and Mr Andrew and your dad have been friends before he passed away" the mention of dad made her eyes a little sad
" don't worry baby they will love you"
"I know mom but I don't know. I am not feeling myself, it's like I am nervous and excited all at the same time. My sentence didn't make sense right"
"Ya it didn't but tell me one thing baby why do you care so much of being disliked by the Andrews? It's not like there is something happening between you and Kylie right?" She said while stroking my hair.
"There is nothing mom and even if there was you will be the first person to know. I guess the fact of being disliked by people scares me, especially those people who mean something to me"
"So Kylie is not just a music partner, is he?"
"No mom, he has become one of my closest friends and I am always happy around him and I feel like I can talk to him about anything, you know that doesn't happen with me often"
" I know it doesn't so you should always treasure these people and you can sleep here today if you want" I just nodded not moving from my position which was my back in the bed "but you have to go blow dry your hair you have made by whole bed wet" she pushed me to the toilet where I blow dried by hair and when I came out of the toilet, her laptop was removed and the comforter changed into something dry.
I hugged her to sleep something I have not done in a long time.

Now it feels like things are falling back to place.