The City Of Heartbreak | COMPLETE

Chapter 5

WARNING ⚠️
This chapter mentions self harming. If this topic upsets you in anyway please do not read on.

That's when it all went wrong....

I stumbled after him like a fool. Screaming and shouting after him making my voice hoarse. My heart ached, tears ran down my cheeks, my legs stumbling beneath me. I couldn't walk. My throat tightened.

'Wh...ats happen..ing?' I croaked.

*1 hour earlier*

As we both sat in front of Alex's computer we watched his subscriber count go from 500 000 to 800 000 in 30 minutes.

I let out a small squeal of excitement and turned to face Alex, while jumping up and down on the bed, when my smile disappeared.

'What's wrong?' I asked, unsure as to why he looked so serious.

'We need to talk' he said, 'I wasn't going to do it this early on but I decided to do it now and get it over and done with'

'What are you on about?' I replied, tensing my whole body in the meantime.

'Now that I'm successful I'm done with you. I only used you to get famous' he said firmly.

'What are you talking about' I said, grabbing his arm.

'I don't want to be with you. I never did want to. I was using you.' He yelled, pulling his arm out of my reach.

My mind flashed back too all our memories together; our Starbucks date,  Planet Hollywood, M&M world, our cute moments cuddling watching shows and how he made me happy when I thought no one else could.

He fumbled off the bed and started packing his clothes. Then he went into the next room to get his camera equipment.

I stumbled after him like a fool. Screaming and shouting after him making my voice hoarse. My heart ached, tears ran down my cheeks, my legs stumbling beneath me. I couldn't walk. My throat tightened.

'Wh...ats happen..ing?' I croaked.

'I love you Alex' I wept. Tears streaming down my cheeks. I was unable to stop the tears.

To no surprise he ignored me and grabbed his bags and walked downstairs without looking back.

His arm outstretched towards the door handle. I grabbed him before he could disappear on me.

'What don't you understand Jenny? I DON'T LOVE YOU. I NEVER HAVE' He snapped.

I let go off him. The door slammed behind him. My legs finally gave in and I collapsed to the floor. Everything was blurry. I just stayed there on the floor. Crying. Hoping he would realise he made a mistake and would come back home. I wanted him to see me like this. I wanted him to see what he did to me.

Would I forgive him if he came back? Why was I still so crazy about him when he made it clear he never even loved me in the first place. Then it hit me. At first it was only a burn in the chest but then the burn travelled all around my body.

I longed to be held by him. His arms made me feel safe. A knock on the door threw me back in reality. Suddenly I was back lying on the floor alone.