Alone

“Pathetic is what you are,” The insult was thrown at me like every single one before it and I’m sure that many more would come.

“Honey go play. Mommy and daddy need to do some things with our friends.” A line given to me whenever my parents wanted to do drugs.

“Daddy my toy is broken.” I cried to him.

“Fix it yourself,” was his only reply.

“Mommy I’m hungry,” I pleaded to her.

“We don’t have any food honey,” She replied from the bed where she slept all the time.

“Daddy, why does it burn?” I asked through the tears of having some unknown thing burn me.

He just grunted and cleaned me up.

“Daddy, Mommy, I wanna be famous when I grow up.” I ran excitedly with a fake microphone and book filled with fake speeches.

No response was ever given to me. I grew up believing in my dreams myself.

“I made a new friend today!” I screamed as I ran through the house.

“Please keep it down pumpkin, no one cares,” was my dad’s reply.

“Daddy, why did that thing make a loud noise?” I asked as he brought inside the house.

“It made a loud noise and did a bad thing because that’s what it does.” A simple reply to a young boy.

“Daddy, Mommy, look what grandma and grandpa got me!” I yelled excitedly while waving my new toy around.

“That’s nice toad,” Was the only reply.

“Can I go play?” I pleaded with my dad.

“Sure be home by dark.” He said calmly. He didn’t care where I went or anything, just to be home by dark.

“Grandma, why are all these cops here?” I asked her quietly, while tears slowly fell down my face.

“Everything will be better now, I promise.” She replied with a hushed voice

I've always wondered what it would be like to live a normal life, but sadly, I never got to live a normal life. I’ve been adopted twice, in the foster system, been through hell and I still wonder if I will ever do much. The story I am about to tell is one of great sadness. This is my tale and only I will tell it.

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