Why does one cry? I know I cry because I shouldn't be crying, weather it be a product of frustration, self loathing or disappointment, it's usually one of those. Do I cry harder because when you get complimented and supported the disappointment only grows because you can't do your best for the people that support you and say you can do better as you become more and more disappointed when you think that they shouldn't even have to tell you these things? Perhaps it has to do with the fact that if they say you can do better but are brilliant you're already disappointing because you're not brilliant when they say you could be. But when your sobbing and they ask why and offer consolation you can't tell them because you're sobbing and their consolation makes it worse. When your complex thoughts and explanations disappear because the sobbing gets worse until it burns away leaving you a fire without fuel. If this happens and they ask for explanation and you've already burnt away the tears you'll be left having no explanation for the breakdown you could easily explain and a negative image as the person who breaks down because of the simplest things. Or perhaps you've cried because of a complex amalgamation of feelings and thoughts you can neither remember or explain. Perhaps the dark hole of pessimism has slowly been eating away at your motivation leaving you distracted and looking for something you don't know what is as the stable worlds you once knew crumbles around you and you're left with nothing but your regrets. I wouldn't know because don't know you.
