Broken

Life it's self

Well lets get started on how I died and what exactly happened with me and everything shall we.. like I said my name is Ethan Lucas Kathaway, Have you ever thought to yourself.. what is love? .. I didn't know til I found this girl.. Monica Marie Adams.. she was the most beautiful person that I've ever met.. shes everything id want in a girl in my perspective.. some people said dieing for someone is worth it if you love them, maybe sometimes it isn't.. I learned that it wasn't worth it.. because she wasn't the one for me.. its mainly a love story that went down the drain.. my last words to her were these 

"Dear Monica..

I love you, I will for ever on my days that i am on earth for.. I know i wasn't enough

for you to love and to give your heart to.. I think of you.. I always will no matter what..

your the love of my life.. for me it will stay that way.. meeting you was the best days 

of my life with you.. I hope you understand that I have strong feelings.. I cry about you..

I think about you.. I dream about you.. I still look at our pictures.. I still wake up and cry out

your name even though you are now where to be seen.. I always made time and space for you..

I sometimes wonder what i could do better to let you know i love you.. but then I cant do that 

because im worth nothing to you now.. you've moved onto another that showed you the world..

just know that your forever in my heart even if you left me for another.. my life is now upside 

down but it'll be fine my dear.. it will be fine.. I will get over the fact you wanted better...

but I will tell you this.. I wont date you ever again.. 3 years of us seemed nothing to you.. 

yes i cut over you and the fact that you lied and cheated on me for those years.. but it is

what it is.. i wont bother to even say i'm sorry i'm sorry I failed you everything even 

when i couldn't.. always remember those words i told you.. "love is a strong word.. don't throw it 

around like a dog toy and expect the animal to pick it back every time.. because then they bored 

of the toy and forget it was even there" 

From, E.L.K"

some of you might find the letter rude but I said as how I felt about the situation.."Love"  isn't a word that can be thrown away just because its boring or anything.. it's a word that has a meaning to it.. some people don' know what it is because they haven't felt it but you will soon..