lee jihoon(woozi) | 더 리듬 the rhythm

29th-melody☽

MELODY✘

I step into my apartment blankly, I switch on the light and slowly walks to the table and put my bag down. I slightly sigh and throw myself onto my bed.

I sigh once again loudly while staring at the ceiling and reminiscing back what happened today. I seriously had fun, it's being a while for me to have fun like that especially with the friend that I seriously adore. Mingyu seriously a friend that I can lean on, I just realized how much he wants the best from me.

And lastly, what just happened. I feel thankful that Mingyu understands my situation. But at the same time I kinda feel bad, seems like I'm hurting him and honestly it hurts me too.

I feel like a bad woman. Rejecting a guy who really likes me and looking at the guy who never look at me properly. Honestly I can't lie with this feeling, if Mingyu approach me before Jihoon make a move I might choose him instead but right now, this feeling more for that cold guy.

It's seriously distracting me a lot, it makes me keep thinking about it.

About this feeling and him.

"Arghhh!" I scream loudly while kicking the air.

I should focus on studying but I can't stop thinking about him.

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Mingyu go back to the practice room and once he enters the room everyone already looking at him like they already expecting him to come in.

"Am I late?" Mingyu asks while quickly putting his bag down and reaches his other clothes inside the locker. "No it's okay, you should go change your clothes now" Seungcheol says calmly and Mingyu immediately enters a small room to change his clothes.

After some minutes later Mingyu gets out from the room with his tracksuit and stands at his place, ready to have a dance practice.

"Did you go out with Seonyul?" Wonwoo who stands beside him asks curiously. Mingyu raises his eyebrow in surprise, "how did you know?" He asks back.

"Jihoon went out today and when he got back he looks so gloomy" Wonwoo explains while looking at the front, pretending to focus on leader's instruction. "He saw you with her" He quickly whispers before anyone can hear or notice it especially Jihoon who have a sharp eyes and ears.

Mingyu perplexed, he feels so shocked. He can't believe that Jihoon saw them together. "H-how?" He asks himself and looks at Jihoon who dances expressionlessly. Mingyu wonders did Jihoon was trying to meet Melody? "He totally misunderstanding it" Mingyu mumbles.

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After the dance practice ended, Jihoon immediately walks to his studio. One by one take a peak at him and then look at each other, once Jihoon gets inside and close the door Seungkwan walks closer towards Mingyu.

"You go out with Seonyul?" He asks bluntly and Mingyu slowly nods. Everyone's attention suddenly on him, makes him feel uncomfortable. "That's mean he seriously saw both of you," Seungcheol suddenly says while feeling worried. "He doesn't look okay at all just like last night." He adds.

Mingyu looks at Seungcheol, asking him with his eyebrows confusedly. And everyone also change their attention to him. "Last night, he actually went out to catch Seonyul but when he came back, he looks so depressed" Seungcheol explains carefully.

"Seems like he just saw what he wasn't supposed to see" Mingyu says. "What do you mean? You are not dating her right?" Seungkwan asks once again bluntly.

"I like her, I seriously like her I think all of you already know that she's my first love," Mingyu slowly explains. "But she doesn't like me," he continues while holding back his tears. "She likes Jihoon hyung" he adds.

Some of them feel so shocked about it, meanwhile some others already expected it. Wonwoo comes closer as he can see Mingyu's face change, he pinches his shoulder meanwhile Seungcheol pats his back trying to calm him down.

Mingyu starts to explain more about what he's trying to do and the members support his decision.

"Are you sure you will be okay with this?" Wonwoo asks worriedly. Mingyu silence for some seconds then he nods, he looks determined. "If that what you want, we will support" Seungcheol says while feeling bad to his dongsaeng.

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JIHOON✘

I was so shocked about last night, I'm regretting everything and can't accept the fact that I was just a step late than Mingyu. When he came back from Melody's house he looks extremely happy, on that time I already know something good happen between them but I keep denying it.

I couldn't sleep at all, and I don't even go home. I stayed at the studio for the whole night while thinking about her and what should I do because I know I have to do something.

I went to her apartment once again, waiting for her outside the apartment while looking around expecting her figure to appear. I look at the time It was already the time for her to get home but it's already being an hour of waiting and she's still nowhere to be seen.

I waited more, I seriously desperate to meet her so I decided to wait more longer. Smoke came out from my mouth when I breath, holding back the coldness of the long winter. The clear sky turned darker but there's still no sign of her existence.

I gave up and told myself that I will come again tomorrow but on my way to go home I suddenly saw the familiar figure. When I realized it's her I automatically smile, but that smile didn't last that long when I saw a tall guy beside her.

It hurts so much, it's seriously hurt so bad but I can't look away. I keep looking at them while hiding myself behind the wall. They look so lovely with her wearing her happy smile and the guy staring at her lovingly. It hurts even more.

They stopped walking, they seems to have some conversations but I can't hear anything. I told myself I should walk away but I can't even budged from there. I keep watching, until Melody suddenly approached him and hugged him tightly. On that time I quickly look away with my eyes already teary, I close my eyes and the tears fall down. I can't accept what I just saw, I bite my lips and run away from the situation.

I tried to show my usual expressionless face and pretend like nothing happened but I can't. I locked myself inside the studio and cried uglily. I bursted everything, including the tears that I held since last night. And seems like the other members noticed it, maybe by looking at my red eyes.

It's already late and I'm still busy trying to make myself busy. Distracting myself with a lot of things just to make me stop thinking about her.

I still can't complete the song that I created with her because it keeps reminding me about her. I try to create another melody but I can't, seems like I lost my inspiration once again.

Once again I realized how much I need her, Once again I realized that I seriously need her.

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