I wasted my life for this lousy excuse of a man?
I could not believe it!
I wanted nothing more than to run to him and beg him to wake up from the stupid dream.
I wanted him to take me some place where we didn’t know anybody.
No pain …
No memory …
No humiliation …
I wanted to just forget it ever happened. But I couldn’t …
I couldn’t, for the life of me pretend, it didn’t happen. I couldn’t pretend he didn’t hurt me.
Kasi sobrang sakit! Kahit anong gawin ko, hindi ko magawang patawarin siya at ngumiti na parang walang nangyari.
All my life siya lang! siya lang ang minahal ko. Do you ever think, ganun lang madaling magpatawad?
Maybe yes, kasi mahal mo eh, matitiis mo? hindi diba?
But If I forgive him of what he had done, para ko na rin niloko yung sarili ko! parang sinabi ko na rin na ‘okay lang ako’ pero deep inside sobrang sakit padin! I can’t accept it happened!
I couldn’t...
And …
I can’t…
