chapter 11~

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by lolbandtrash

by lolbandtrash

When we get back to mine, Serge turns to me and says,
"You know, I never forgot about you,"
I smiled and he continues,
"I never stopped loving you"
At that moment it's was like my heart stopped, "What? But what about Poppy?"
"Sure, she's fit,"
I frown,
"But nothing compared to you, you're all I ever wanted and more"
He leans in to kiss me, I push him away and say,
"Serge, as much as I want to kiss you, I can't not whilst you're with Poppy"
He frowns and says,
"Okay, guess I'll see you around, we're staying here for another two days"
"Okay, bye"

****

I'm on an emotional roller coaster, I want to get with Serge so much, but I don't want to upset Poppy and ruin things between them. I go up the stairs and mum shouts me,
"What was the band like?"
"Yeah, it was good"
I say unconvincingly,
"Are you sure?"
All of a sudden I burst into tears and he face drops,
"What's wrong?"
"S-s-serge was there and Tom and a girl and it was a-all so horrible and I hate s-seeing him with her"
She rubs my arm and says,
"It's okay, it's going to be fine, I heard a voice outside, who was that?"
"Serge"
She looks at my confused and I say,
"He insisted on walking me home"
"And so he should've, don't want my little girl walking the streets at night"
"Mum I'm an adult now"
"Not to me you're not"
I laugh and say,
"Right, I'm off to bed, night"
"Night, Annie"
She says and I close the door and get into my cosy bed.

***

When I get up I check my phone and see a text from Tom,

Tom

You doing anything today? X

Not much, probably just gonna go to sifters x

What's sifters? X

A record shop, I'll take you if you want? X

Yeah, sure I'll meet you at 1230? X

Okay just come to mine x

Alright see ya x

It was 12 o'clock so I start to get ready. I put on some blue ripped skinny jeans, my stone roses tshirt and my grey adidas shoes. I always put music on when I get ready so I go over to my vinyl player and put on my 'Sally Cinnamon' EP on and the song 'All across the sands' comes on. I start to sing but I'm interrupted by the doorbell, Tom must be here.

I run down the stairs to the door but to my confusion when I open the door Serge is standing there.
"Hey"
He says, I look at him confused and say,
"Hey, erm, wheres Tom?"
"Nice to see you too,"
I chuckle and he continues saying,
"Yeah, he couldn't come so he sent me"
"Right, we best get going"
I grab my coat and run out and link our arms. He smiles down at me and says,
"So, where are we going again?"
"Sifters, it's a record shop, it's only down the road"
He nods and says,
"Remember the time when I bought you that oasis record but you insisted we shared it"
I giggled and said,
"I've still got that"
He looks shocked and said,
"Really?"
I nod and he smiles,
"I miss it back then"
I look at him and say,
"Me too"

***

When we get to Sifter's and I'm looking through the records when I get to the album 'Setting Sons' by The Jam. What an album. I show it to Serge and say,
"Have you listened to The Jam before?"
He shakes him head and I say,
"Oh my god, you should they're class"
He takes if off me to have a look and I say,
"I'm probably gonna get it so you can listen to it at mine if you want?"
His face lights up and he's says,
"Y-yeah Okay"
I go over to the counter and pay, then we leave and walk back to mine.

When we get back I go to my record player and put the vinyl on, the song 'Going Underground' comes on, I start dancing and singing Serge laughs and joins in but we're interrupted by his phone ringing. He scratches the back of his neck and says,
"It's Poppy"
I just frown, turn around and say,
"Answer it, it's fine"
I say and go and turn to record player down, pretending not to listen. I can hear her screaming,
"Where are you?! You better not be with that Annie girl!"
He looks at me sympathetically and says,
"No, I'm just with Tom, I'll be back in a minute"
I start to cry, I'm upset because we can't be together because of Poppy and I miss him so much, I just want him to be mine again. I walk into the bathroom and dry my eyes, Serge follows me after his chaotic phone call. He rubs my shoulders but I shrug him off, he looks hurt but I don't think he knows how much I'm hurting not being with him.
"Whats up?"
"What do you think? I miss you so much Serge"
"I miss you too"
"Why can't you stay here then?"
"Because I'm with Poppy and you know that"
"I thought you loved me"
"I do, endlessly"
I look at him confused,
"Why are you doing this to me?"
I ask him,
"What?"
"Telling me you love me but then putting me down by saying that we can't be together because of Poppy"
He's speechless but I speak up,
"Just go, Serge"
He try's to say something but I push him away,
he sighs and frowns, walking away leaving me i my bathroom to cry.