friends with benefits ; jjk

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My eyes slowly open, which was a relief, but my vision was still blurry. But I still manage to see things around me. I felt someone holding my hand. Then I heard a voice, a worried voice. "thanks god, you are awake."

I tried to open my eyes a little more to find the source of the voice. my vision became clear and I could see Jungkook was sitting next to me, relief came to his face as well as a smile when he saw that I was awake. He was the one who was holding my hand.

his eyes shone as they met mine. We stared at each other in silence for a few seconds before he reached out and pulled me towards him. His lips softly met mine and my heart skipped a beat. I didn't kiss him back pushed him a little.

"I don't want to do this anymore." You cut him off, catching his expression drop. "I can't."

"what?" he spoke softly.

"I don't want to do this anymore." you repeated, looking down.

"do what?" he asked me.

"This whole, friends with benefits thing. I can't do it anymore." you spoke again.

"You can't? Why not?" He looked at me.

"I think I've found someone." I bit my lip trying to control my tears from coming down.

"you gotta be kidding me. it's not funny, baby." he put a strand of my hair at the back of my ear and looked at me in disbelief.

"I'm being serious, Jungkook." I manage myself to look at him. "I really like this guy."

"fine if that's what you want." he sigh. "but if he isn't worth it you can always comeback to me."

"thank you. you are the best." I hugged him and he hugged me back.

I really like being in his embrace. it felt so warm and safe. I didn't want this hug to end but I have to. I have to ignore all the feelings I have for him.

'let's not develop any feelings towards each other.'

his words kept playing in my mind like a CD. I like him. that's the problem. It was supposed to be friends with benefits thing but things usually didn't turn out the way they are supposed to. I can't have any feelings for him. It's the rule. If I said 'no' one year ago, everything wouldn't turn out like this. the way we kiss, hug, and everything made me fall for him.

so, here I am trying to avoid him to ignore all the feelings.

[third person pov]

Jungkook closed his eyes after he got inside his car. He leaned his head against his headrest, Y/N words kept lingering on his mind.

'I can't do this anymore'

'I thinks I've found someone'

He though as he bit his lip. He groaned and ruffled his hair in frustration before he started the engine and steered the car onto the street and drive towards his house.