20 August 2014
Graduation Day is getting closer. I don't know what to say on the stage. All I know is I'll be speaking in front of 4000 students. This year is a very special year. All students from the same university but from different cities will attend the graduation in Bali. There are 8 branches of this university all around this country and all of them will attend the graduation. Each study program from each university will select 1 student to deliver a graduation speech. Well, I don't have enough courage to speak in front of students, lecturers, and surprisingly, parents. I used to be a shy little girl who blushed when someone was asking my name. It was long time ago, I know.
Now, I grow up to be a strong woman. I've been hurt and disappointed but somehow, I can still open my heart for another love. I met many people after him but they didn't greet of even say hello to me. So, this is who I am, I always stay safe. I don't want to say hello, but I wait for them to do instead. Or maybe, I may see sparks fly when I look at someone's eyes, but I never smile outside, just inside. For me, no matter how you chase love, love will always run away. They will not stay although you try so hard to hold it tight. All love stories are the same, it's all about goodbye. And now, I'm tired of saying goodbye. I need someone who will stay forever. I know forever is a long time, but at least, they want to be with me no matter hard the situation is.
Some people went from my life when I loved them the hardest. But at that point, I realized that not everyone could stay in my life. People do come and go for a reason. They made me see that hope was something which will fade away through time. And I know it's right. Once I put my hope on someone I love the most, they went away. No one can define 'hope' as a meaningful word to me, no one.
This evening, my cousin will visit my house. She will stay here and be with me on my Graduation Day. She is my closest sister that I have. Everytime she visits my house, she'll bring my favorite cookies from her town. Her town is full of cookies factories and the cookies there are the best. It's a cold windy night, and I'm not alone now. For the first time in forever, I feel that I'm not alone.
"Grace, how is your life?"
"It's not getting better, Anne"
"Do you still love him, eh?"
"Always"
"Listen, just throw your love. I believe he's happy now and he has a better life now"
"I tried to, but I failed. I know he can't be happier without me. He told me that I knew him better than he did"
"Grace, listen, he has a happy life now. He has a happy life now, Grace. He married his friend from Elementary School. I heard the news from my friend who worked at the same office with him. I'm sorry I didn't tell you earlier"
At that point, I wish I could make him remember to all the dreams we made those days. The simple wedding we planned and also a fun honeymoon in Maldives. I still can't believe he changed his mind. He didn't even invite me to his wedding.
He burned the bridges we've made, but he could never burn my spirit.
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