Random Moments and Facts About My Life

The Divorce

My parents divorced when I was only 4 and a half. I didn't know what was happening. One moment we were all happy together, then we were broke apart and became sad. My mom took me to the state she worked in and my sister stayed with my dad in the state we were born in. I stayed up North for a month or so and we came back on Christmas day. I was supposed to be able to hang out with my dad all day but I didn't even get to say goodbye or I love you. My mom, sister, and I went back up north for a while. Then we moved to another state and stayed with my aunt. My sister got a boyfriend and I started school for the first time. It was pretty good but my mom still wasn't around much because of work. I was still crushed from the divorce but I pushed past it. Eventually we moved to Texas. Everything here was so different for me. The people, the landscape, even the food. Even though I have always lived in the south, it was foreign to me. I felt different and struggled to fit in, but I stayed strong and fought with all my might to not break down. When middle school cane around, we could barely afford our house payment. The school bought me supplies and a backpack and everyone knew. I got dirty looks and comments. I felt alienated. At 12 years old, no one should feel that way. No one knew my past and I didn't know my future. I started to hang out with the wrong crowd because I thought no one else would accept me. I met a couple of amazing people who grace my life everyday, like my best friend, Sierra. With out my friends and family, no matter how broken we are, I know for a fact that I wouldn't be writing this right now. I began to become depressed and I started talking to my dad again. Our talks weren't great but I felt like we had our connection back. Guess I was wrong about that one. He ended up hurting me many times. So much so, that I don't talk to him anymore. I know it hurts him but I can't put myself in that situation anymore. Freshman year, my crush from 3rd grade started talking to me. He's hella hot and popular now but we talk every now and then. So my life began to slowly pick back up again and after finding out some things that killed me inside, I am doing pretty good.

I know this was a vague and long story but I just can't say some things. Sorry. But thanks for caring so much to read this far, really means a lot!