was today even real? it's been 8 hours since i heard the news, and it still doesn't feel real.
so this morning i got on my bus, & opened my phone to a message my friend sent me and the first thing i saw was "shinee's jonghyun found dead"
i almost laughed and said yeah right. but that's when it hit me that this was not some kind of prank. this was real life.
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it is real that kim jonghyun is dead.
now, whenever something like this happens i go emotionless. i don't cry. i don't scream. i don't yell. i don't do any of that. it just hit me so damn hard.
i remember in 2013 i watched one of shinee's shows and immediately fell for jonghyun. and i'm deadass, i'm not making this up just cuz. like jonghyun just really captivated me. his voice was beautiful, he'll HE was beautiful.
so hearing that he's dead, it doesn't feel real.
i'm so so so sorry that we were not able to help you, and that you decided that your only way of happiness was to leave this world.
