I am blind, I am deaf,
unable to move, to take a step.
I lay still, I can't think.
I just see, but I don't blink.
And I hear all the voices.
I hear all past choices, every moment that caused me to end up here, not asleep but paralyzed.
I am a paradox, seeing memories and thoughts puzzled together like a nightmare while being as awake like the daylight itself.
But I can't control them and I have tried. I tried everything to stop seeing you and I have never been so tired.
But ironically, sleep is the only thing, which would make it worse.
Staying awake means to at least have control over my breath and control, that is rare in the night.
