「creeping」- multifandom (DISCONTINUED)

i'm so sorry

hey
it's been a few weeks since my last update

i know i said i'll be updating more often since i'm on break

but i just can't bring myself to
most of you know about shinee jonghyun's tragedy

a great man, bursting with talent and passion, who just loved everyone around him so much and giving so much comfort to everyone around him
and yet, he was suffering silently (there were signs, we just never knew how serious it was) and we couldn't shower him with the same comfort and love that would ultimately make him love himself

his suicide really broke me... i cried hard when i heard about it
even now, i'm trying to keep myself from breaking down again
this made me realise that the reason why i can't bring myself to update this often is that the topics covered are heavy and a bit much for me to handle

i published this book hastily, without much thought on how it might affect me long term
i think, it'd be best for me to discontinue this book before it starts to stress me out and make me feel more depressed

so i won't be releasing such works anymore
as for those of you who have actually continued this book, thank you so much for your support through these feeble 7 chapters

i know i'm weak for not having the strength to continue after a mere 7 chapters

i'm so sorry

but if one day i have the strength to continue
maybe, just maybe
i might do a toned down version of this that won't make me feel burderned

i have,,, many regrets over jonghyun's passing and i don't want to dwell over it too much on this chapter, because i know everyone's suffering too

so,
i just want to hope
that jonghyun is somewhere up there as a star, as an angel

or maybe reborn as another human on the other end of the world, this time being able to get the peace and happiness he deserved
at least somewhere where he is happy, a better place
and i hope his family, friends and shinee are coping well with this loss

everyone, make sure you take care and if you're facing any problems, my dms are always open and you can come and talk about it whenever you need to

i'll be starting a more positive project at the start of next year so please look forward to that

this time, i'll make sure it's a well planned story that i will be happy to continue
it's more of a "daily reminders" kind of concept but it will be in story form

i'll keep this book on this page, but it won't be updated, so feel free to remove it from your library or something

that's all i have to say for now
everyone, please take care

i love you so much

till this day, you've worked so hard

continue to do your best

i'll always be rooting for you

- dew

everyone, please take care <3