Hate myself | Bts Suga

Chapter 3

Ji-yeon p.o.v

It was the next day and I did my routine. I gave my boys food and checked to see if my mom was home. Sadly she wasn't. She worked as a translator for a company because she could speak English, Japanese, Korean, Mandarin etc. It was impressive but some jobs required her to go on trips with her boss. Other times she would BE with her boss (if you get the hint.) She would constantly ignore me and leave me alone to take care of cleanimg, food, laundry and all the chores. I would constantly be neglected by her. She doesn't even know how old I am or what grade. If you were to meet her you wouldn't even know she had a daughter. There are even times where her boss comes to our house and I would get kicked out in the night. Luckily there is a library that would be open and I would have to take the dogs with me.
Growing up without a mom was kind of difficult. She had hired a maid to take care of me up until I can do things by myself. Until then I was all alone. When my dad died I had gone into depression. I wouldn't eat, I couldn't sleep and I once tried Jumping off a bridge but a stranger held onto me and lifted me up. I was taked to a hospital and recived therapy. That's where reading came in. I would use it to Escape my sad reality. One day as I was going to the library I saw a box moving in an alley. I looked inside and found my baby boys. I didn't even have to ask my mom I just kept them with me. Theres more to this story but that's for later.

Before I knew it I had reached school. I plugged my earphones in and kept walking. Except this time alot of people were starring at me. And I mean ALOT. I tried my best to keep my head down and held tight onto my backpack. I walked into the halls and even more eyes were on me. I felt even more of an outcast than I already was. I kept walking and was stopped by the "Great" Oh minji.

"I thought I told you to stay away from my oppas" she gave me a push and I stepped back.

"I tried too.." I said barely a whisper. I couldn't stand up for myself infront of all these people. I would just be embarrassing myself.

"Stay away from MY oppas!" She gave me a stronger push and Knocked me down to the floor. Everyone just watched but no one helped. This world was sick. I hated this school and how everone in it was. A bunch of mindless zombies who had nothing better to do and enjoyed watching others in pain.

"Yah! Leave her alone you brat!" I turned my head and so did the crowd. It was Jhope.

"Are you okay?" He gave me a bright smile. The type of smile that could light up an entire universe.

"Yes. Thank you" he helped me get up. I dusted myself off and turned to look at Oh Minji who was glaring at me. I had so much to stay but instead I bowed to Jhope and kept heading to Homeroom. As I was walking I got tapped. I turned around and it was Jhope again.

"Yes?"

"We have the same homeroom so might as well walk together right?"

"Oh..okay sure" It was silent as we just walked together but of course he broke it.

"So why was that girl pushing you?"

"Umm.....because I kept talking to you guys.." I looked down.

"Ahh so we're the problem"

"Truthfully yes but...Its nice having someone to talk too." I looked at him and he looked at me. It was nice having to talk to someone and they actually talked back to me so normally. It felt as if I had a friend and it felt warm.

We entered homeroom and I went to the back of the class and Jhope went with Bts. It wasn't like a cold bye. We smiled to eachother. I plugged my earphones in and started reading waiting for the teacher to come in.
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Jhope p.o.v

I smiled at Ji-yeon as she did what she does best which is read.

"Why did you walk in with ji-yeon?" Asked Jungkook and V.

"Because I helped her when she was getting bullied."

"Who was bullying her!?" All of Bts asked.

"Remember that annoying girl who asked all of us out multiple times and acts spoiled?"

"What's her name mai-ling??" Said Suga all clueless of this girl.

"Actually...I think so. I don't even remember" I said. I TOTALLY forgot. All I know her as was brat.

"Do you guys think she gets bullied alot?" Asked Jin.

"I wanna know now too" Joined in Namjoon.

"Should we ask her about it?" Said Jimin. Everyone was discussing it when Suga got up and walked over to Ji-yeon. We all looked at each other about what he was gonna do but he just napped. Our homeroom teacher was pretty chill. Mr.Kim would let us do anything we wanted unless we had to review or things like that. We were all watching as Suga was sleeping next to Ji-yeons chair when we see half his body fall into Ji-yeons lap. She was about to scream but Jimin ran to her and covered her mouth.

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Ji-yeon p.o.v

Suga had fallen into my lap and Jimin was covering my mouth. I gestured him to let go as I'll keep quiet. I looked and jimin and mouthed 'what do I do?' He grabbed a chair and put it between yoongi was so he wouldn't fall. In all honesty it was pretty Hilarious but weird because this usually feels like when my dogs lay on my lap and want me to pet them. Before I knew it I started  sort of  petting his head. I stopped myself and pulled back. The members had their mouths wide open. I held my hand and everyone was just starring until Yoongi grabbed my hand and said in a sleepy voice

"Keep going" the members gestured for me to keep going so I did. These boys were actually not so bad. It was the end of class so I stopped and tried putting my things away but Suga was in my way.

"Hey..it's time to wake up"

"I don't wanna"

"Please wake up" I poked his cheek for him to wake up. He opened his eyes and looked straight in my soul. He grabbed my hand and put it onto his head.

"From now on you do this everyday"

"Oh..um..okay?" I smiled at him and he smiled back. This guy reminds me of cuddles. Scary looking but fuzzy on the inside. He got up and I packed my things. As I got up I noticed the boys were still in the doorway. I grabbed my things and kept walking.

"Why are you guys still here?" I asked curious.

"We're waiting for you" Said Jimin.

"Why?"

"We don't want you to get bullied anymore" said Jhope. Oh....is that why they are being nice? I felt dumb at this point. I thought that they just saw me as an intellectual not a little helpless mouse.

"Um no thanks I'm fine" I walked past them and when to my next class.

"How could you be so stupid? These people don't like you. They PITY you for the sad thing that you are. A REJECT. A OUTCAST. A nothing. Just stay with your books" The voice inside my head was right. I kept walking to my class that was next which was Calculus. I was still sad with what my inner voice said but....it was right.

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